When I have my episodes, I am (somewhat) conscious of my actions. I lose track of time and have racing thoughts but I think there are warning bells ringing going of in my head, and I just ignore them. But the longer I go without being stable, it gets hard to distinguish what reality is.
The only times I don't remember was when alcohol was involved. Driving a car was bad for me, I noticed after the fact that I become more aggressive/reckless in that state of mind.
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