Thanks LFW. I really don't know what to do now about the meds. I am one of those who cannot tolerate the side effects of the anti-psychotics and mood stabilizers, and my pdoc would not agree to put me on and anti-depressant only (which I agree with). But to be truthful, he won't even consider an anti-depressant at all as any part of the combination if I were to go back on meds. It's frustrating. To me, BP type II, depression is a major part of the symtpoms, so I wish he would acknowledge that.
This past weekend when I was considering going in to see him, I was just going to once again beg him to re-consider the mix, if I wanted back on meds. I have done that many times however, and he still refuses.
Anyway, now that I am on the mend, it's extremely hard for me to want to go back on meds. But I'm not ignoring the fact that I will crash again and that recently (over the last month) my lows have been severe. I have been doing pretty well off meds since I went off in October, but now I'm starting to wonder. Ugh, and I don't want to even go there. I wouldn't care if my pdoc and I could agree on something and if the side effects didn't make me feel like I needed an IV and a wheel chair 24/7--If those weren't factors, I'd probably be making a phone call right now, b/c I can recognize things are getting out of control.
Thanks again for your support. Today I am going to the Mental Health Association in my area to get a worker assigned to me just to help me cope more. My bf and I had a huge fight the other night, and with everything I'm dealing with, I think some more intense action is needed at this point.
Thank you LFW for your support and prayers.
My pdoc is pretty darn good. This little disagreement we're in sucks, but all in all, he is in fact the most well known and respected pdoc in my city, and my city is big. I am honestly fortunate to be one of his patients. If I ever need anything, he'll do it. I take benzo's still for my panic attacks and he's the only doc that I know of (and that all health/pharmacy professionals in my area know of) that will still call those benzo drugs into the pharmacy for me so I don't have to go in and see him. He supports me immediately and fully with any and all documentation that I need. And he has been my pdoc for 7 years now.
So, while there was a time I considered getting a second opinion, I know now, I need and want to remain under his care. If were absolutely decided about going back on meds and we couldn't come to some agreement, maybe I would think again. But today I have decided, I'm still not ready to return to bp meds.
Having said all of that, thank you for putting that idea out there. I know what you're saying, if things ever got really bad with my pdoc, I would make a decision.
My pdoc did everything right as far as easing me onto meds (and off of meds when changing, and when I went off them altogether). In the 7 years, it's always, always been small doses, slowly, working my way up, and if I ever had a problem I would simply call, then we would make adjustments. You can do everything right and people can still suffer greatly.
In answer to the anti-psychotics (my most hated form of drug ever). Everyone's treatment is different. We tried just mood stabilizers first, he just added in the ap's to try and get that "right mix". No specific reason, just trying to get the right meds. If your husbands' pdoc/doc thought it would benefit your husband's treatment, they would prescribe them for him as well. Ap's are used in bp, so it's just a matter of what the pdocs think.
Thanks again for your reply, all the best you and your family.
PS-Went the the Mental Health Assoc today and I am awaiting to have a support worker assigned to me. Good news.