its hard when the good advice is hurting you sometimes. but the people giving it dont mean to hurt you, they're only trying to help. they just dont understand that getting out isnt always so easy and that that can make us feel worse. i would love to come and go as i wanted. but right now its not really a choice i have. and others dont always get that. they think if we could just get out of the house more we'd be fine. and it doesnt always work that way.
its hard to stay positive when things seem so bad and almost hopeless. but your right that everyday counts as a victory. sometimes we just have to drag ourselves through till the next day. it will get better. i'm told that often. but dont always feel. yesterday and today though i've been feeling better. so maybe it does really get better. but i'm still a little leary. i have been struggling so long that it doesnt seem possible.
and i completely understand about the fear and too much noise. i've been in a constant state of fear for months now and i'm not really sure exactly what i'm afraid of. everything i guess. and i cant tolerate too much noise. i can listen to music, but thats about it. no television-its just too noisey for me. if things get to noisey and chaotic then my anxiety flares up and i have a whole other battle to fight.
i guess i just wanted to let you know while i havent been through everything you have, your still not alone. i get how your feeling. and its hard and it sucks alot. but we can both get through it.
I have bipolar disorder, panic attacks w/agoraphobia, social anxiety, diabetes, asthma, and high blood pressure.
~ Life is short but I am not. ~