Hang in there, this too shall pass. I feel that way these days, I think I am trying to fight off my depression. I wouldn't say I am fully depressed, but I definetly am in a funk. I feel like escaping from what is called life everyday, but as you said you can't go on vacation alone. Because the part of you that wants to escape will go with you everywhere you go.
As Ellie said, don't give up on your therapist or your Dr. Even if you feel like it is not helping. All things take time. Even though it may not feel that was to you.
~~~ Olivia ~~~
Dx: Bipolar I, PTSD, Anxiety/Panic Sufferer
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