Thank you so much for your reply on your personal experiences. As bad as this may sound, I feel better about the situation, as it is very hard and frustrating to continually remind myself not to take his episode personally against me. I know it has absolutely nothing to do with me and I think in his moments of lucidity, he thinks of me and also did tha email to me. I don't think he is taking his meds right now because his Pdoc is evaluating his raw moods (he's charting/journaling his moods per instructions from Pdoc) to, I would assume, prescribe him a new mix of Rx. He could have experienced a break through with his current meds which I have come to find happens to many while taking meds. Again, I'm not sure just why his current Rxs no longer work for him. In any case, I am assuming that is why he isn't talking to me. I am also assuming/hoping that once the new mix of meds is precribed, it may be another few months until my bf is back to his old self. I certainly will weather the storm out. I guess I just need to know that when he is normal again, he will once again adore me as he did only days before the condition set in.
Again..thank you so very much for your reply
We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars.Oscar Wilde