My dear friend, I hope you are well today, because you deserve to be. I have been so busy with school, I haven't had much time for my wonderful online support group. This support here really helps me, and being so busy lately, I've felt the effects of needing it and missing it.
Anyway, it's the weekend. I'll be doing some housework, but a lot of homework and studying this weekend. My bf had to work today. I'll be checking in on HW today and tomorrow for sure and then hopefully that will help me have a better start for Monday.
You have been in my thoughts. And I have read your posts in this "part 2". I am really wondering how your bp support group is going. The one I was in was my turn around point, not only in my illness, but in my life. The occupational therapists (OT's) we had were really great. I believe that is a huge factor for a support group, because sometimes, it's hard to get everyone talking or even to show up. But our OT's were so helpful. I think it's so important you're in this group and keep going with it, because it will allow you that time to focus on what you are going through. It will help you manage your bp.
It upsets me knowing you're having such a hard time with feeling guilty. I would also like to know what your counsellor/therapist is saying? I can't remember quite how it goes...If you and Footballfan are seeing a therapist both together and separtely? I guess what I would like to know is if you guys are seeing someone together for the marriage, what does that therapist say? I know they mostly listen, but are they giving you any pointers or things to think about? I know that you want nothing more than to keep your marriage and family together. I want that for you as well.
I want you to know that you are doing everything you can to help yourself and your marriage, and honestly that is all you can do. I know that's hard, but sometimes acceptance can be extremely healing if you really understand it and believe it.
Take care Dutchie, let me know how you're doing and how the support group is going. ((((hug))))