this is not my first time on healingwell but it is my first time posting here. im kind of going thru a rough patch right now and i need some help. fist off for my bipolar i had a huge psychotic breakdown about a year ago and it has taken until a few months ago plus a a buttload of head meds to get me feelin almost normal. but now things are happening that are starting to ruin my progress.
i have crohns disease and it had flared up again. im on steriods and theyre trying to change around my other medication to see if itll help at all. im so worried about it becasue there arent many other choices as far as meds to treat it if the remicade does not help.
second i have many symptoms of MS. i wont bore you with all of them but i use a cane and i cant do very many things. i just had a neurologist appointment where i was supposed to find out whats wrong with me and the answer basically came back as i dont know. this is the 4th time its been this answer and i was so hoping this would be the day i would find out. he cant rule out MS so ill have to be scanned every 6 months but basically i dont know what to do becasue i dont have an answer or a treatment plan.
third im just depressed about my life situation. im 26 years old and i live at home becasue until now i cant hold down a job mentally or physically. i want to substitute teach so i am looking for a job that i can do part time where it wont interfere with the days when they will hopefully call me. its relaly hard to find something that i can handle physically so its been really hard to even get any ideas. but other than that i do nothing, i dont have many friends and they dont live around me. if im not out at PT or able to catch my family when they are around im alone and doing nothing. i do my art which helps but this empty life is getting to me. i just dont know what to do.
anyhow i guess i am looking for some sympathy and im not sure where else to go. im so worried that this situation is going to make my BP go down the tubes. from reading the board i see that you guys are somforting and welcoming and it seemed like this would be a good place to just let it all out. thank you so much to anyone who reads this and for just letting me vent. i wish you all well
Crohn's Disease Diagnosed 12/24/03 (Thats Right, Merry Christmas to me!)