A slip of the foot you may soon recover, but a slip of the tongue you may never get over.
Thank you both, I wish i could say I am doing fine, but I'm not. I jst don't feel right or good or something. I know it is not lithium toxicity if anything it may be the lack of medication. My mind is racing. I am going through horrible mood swings. I just don't know what to do. I am only on Lithium and i don't think it has taken yet or is enough. I don't have an appointment unitl saturday and I don't know to go earlier or not. I know it takes time, but what do I do unitl it takes effect? I don't want to seem like a hypocondriac to my doctor. I just want to feel better. I don't know where to turn or who to turn to. No one understands me here. "you don't need that" "you take too much medication" "your the same as you have always been". This is driving me up the wall. I don't take too many pills. I know that I need this to control my moods and yes I am the same I have been the last few years. Moody, depressed and want to be isolated away from everyone and everything. I want to be happy and enjoy life and people and not hide in my room. I have everythig, yet I have nothing. Is is wrong to want to be happy. I don't get it. I just wish I could be stabalized.
Sorry, this is just driving me crazy this morning. Hope all is well with you all.
Well I went to my doctor yesterday and explained to him what was going on in my life and my head. He had to tell me to slow down. I guess I was just rambling on, but at least I ended up getting it all out. He uped my lithium to 1200mg and added frisium 5mg 2 times a day and the normal serequel 100mg and rohypnol for bedtime. He said that I did not need a blood test yet, but wanted my heart check in a couple of weeks because the meds I am taking may give me rapid heart beat or arithmia(I think) something to do with irregular heart beats. That was a bit concerning. He said if I collapse to have someone take me to the hospital. I know I have to drink alot of water as you all have said and will do that. I tried to speak to my partner about this and got a cold reception. Why do you need this and how long? He just doesn't think I need to be taking any meds. I guess I have always hid the problems from him and medicine and he just thinks that I am moody and should just deal with it. I tried to explain that I have been "dealing" with this for a long time, but the conversation ended. I guess I should have just kept my mouth shut. I do believe that in time I will get better and I am not going to give up or stop taking meds no matter what my friends think. My doctor and I know best. Not them. I just wish they would understand. Maybe that is asking too much right now. Anyway, Thanks again for your support and I did tell my doctor I finally had some people to talk to who are or have been going through the same thing and he was happy about that. Believe me so am I. Have a great day.
No. Thank you to you for helping me through this tough time. Serena, Wen and Olivia. You are now in my heart and will always be there. thank you.