Hi Everyone: I've relocated Blessing Waters's post here. Please respond to it here. Thanks.
Hi, I'm a new member, Blessing Waters. I was attracted by a message by Hyde concerning ECT and Dissociative Identity Disorder while surfing and looking for info on exactly that topic. What a way to receive anew diagnosis! Sorry for that. We seem to have a lot in common. I am also Bi-polar, with ultra-rapid cycling (can be several times a day) and mixed states. I am currently experiencing a major depression, have had an increase in Nardil (an MAOI) and it has made some aspects of my problems worse, but won't getr into that right now. A doctor has speculated about ECT, as i also, have had a terrible time finding a medication to help my depression and if this one isn't working I am fearful of ECT, most because i don't know how my memory for the pasat will be affected, as it pertains to both memories i have recovered and those i am still trying to draw forward. Perhaps Hyde would share his thoughts on the memory issue. It would help me. As far as the bipolar goes, I'm having a lot of trouble feeling sleepy and wanting to go to bed at night. I'm not sure why, or even if it is related to tghe bi-polar. It began months before my med increase. I didn't go to bed at all two nights ago and 4:00 AM the following night. I slept about 5-6 hours and now it's almost 2 AM and i fee, perhaps, another all-nightger coming on. I do not have a psychiatrist right now, long story, so my family doctor will re-write prescriptions, but that's all. I have a referral in to see a psychiatristr who actually belpeives in DID. I just pray he'll take me on. I'm so complicated, i also have two eating disorders and Post traumatic stress disorder. However, I'm lucky, as I am still able to do a lot of useful things, like writing books, in spit of all the chaos. I'd love to hear from anyone at all who resonates in any way with what I've said. Enough said for now,
Blessing Waters.(PS I was diagnosed with DID in 2000; I know a lot about it)
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