I'm sorry this is happening to you. Reading your post, it sounds as if you have symptoms by some of the things you mentioned and your anxiety has hit you too I think. I am certainly not a professional...in anything really. I do not have BP or Depression but my partner does and since he has had it since he was a child, he can start detecting the symptoms early. He currently takes Lexepro and Xanax. He noticed some symptoms back in June that seemed like his AD wasn't working as well anymore. By the second week of July, he was in a full fledge depressive mode. He experienced a breakthrough/or burned out with his AD medication as they had no affect on him anymore which lead to the depression.
The usual thing that happened in the past is seeing his pdoc and switching meds, but this time around, the pdoc decided to re-evaluate his dx and did not give him any other meds. So now he's charting his moods but still taking his xanax as needed. The Lexapro is like taking candy basically.
I have heard how going through the changes of new meds and mixes, the side affects are just horrible, but fortunately, they eventually taper off and when having the right mix of meds, it's all worth it I'm sure.
It's really great you are here on HW and expressing yourself. We all would like you to keep in touch with us to see how things are going; how your new mix of meds might be progressing for you and just to talk about anything you feel like.
Looking forward to hearing from you again soon,
C2L and all of us who are down,
Depression is such a hard time; a hard battle. It's ironic that during these times we need to really fight through it, because the last thing we feel like doing or are even physically capable of doing b/c of symptoms, is fighting through it.
To cope, it's important to acknowledge your feelings and actions, and make sure you at least try your best to not let the depression take over those feelings and actions. In other words, try to get out of bed, even if it's just for a walk that might help you clear your mind. And then even just getting out of bed, doing the walk or whatever, will make you feel good about yourself, even if that feeling doesn't last. It will help. It's step by step, little things like that. Push yourself a little, but accept you may need a mental health day, but it will pass. The episodes pass. Reach out to your supports. Take extra care of yourself.
If you are changing doses in your meds, drink lots of water, take things easy. And if the side effects get to be too much talk to your pdoc asap. It's so unfortunate when our meds make us feel worse.
I hope you are doing better, hang in there, we're all hangin' with ya.
Post Edited By Moderator (serafena) : 10/11/2007 9:34:18 PM (GMT-6)
I moved my pdoc appt up one week. He is out of town this week, so I have to wait until next Monday.
What do you all do to cope with depression like this? I just want to go to bed. I do have to work though, but I just want to lie down. I wonder if anything will ever work.
I ran out of wellbutrin yesterday and forgot to get my prescription filled, so I missed a day. Today I'm more depressed.
Will this ever go away?