28 years old
Bipolar II, Panic Disorder, OCD
Seroquel and Klonopin as needed
Sorry to hear you are going through such a difficult time right now. I agree with all the prior posters about trying to calm yourself down. I hope you were able to get into the doctors today. I hope you will find the answers as to why your symptoms keep coming back. Do you think that maybe you need to let your pdoc know that you need more help with anxiety/depression?
I am out of town until tomorrow, I am sorry you are in such a hard state. HANG IN THERE KIDDO...this to shall pass. BREATHE...you know me...focus on meditations and ride the wave all the way into shore. YOU ARE SAFE...cradle yourself in love NO MATTER WHAT YOUR MIND IS SAYING! Start with loving things for yourself EVEN if you are not "in the mood!!!!" Remind yourself you are safe...because you ARE no matter what your mind is saying...OVER RIDE IT!!
I must run, but my thoughts and hugs are with you. LFW
Thank you all so much for reaching out to me, once again. I'm sorry it's taken me some time to post; but I have been too depressed (and busy) to write. I know I will feel better once this module (at school) is over next week. I'll probably even feel better once this huge exam is over tomorrow. Your suggestions to ask to write the exam at a different time made so much sense to me, but it's tough to schedule something like that at my college. Our program is condensed so much, we're on a very tight schedule to learn it all in a very short time. I think I'll do okay on the exam. I've decided for this exam, I am just going to worry about passing.
I did get in to see my regular doctor yesterday re my dizziness. She said that my nasal congestion and the change in barometric pressure are the cause. I agree with that. She prescribed some nasal spray and I have to stay well hydrated. I had another dizzy spell yesterday and today. Dutchie, you are so right about it bothering me that I had to leave school this week (with my perfect attendance). It was really upsetting. But the perfect attendance recognition is for each module, so I am sure I will achieve it again. And I know that my health is the most important thing. Really I haven't been feeling well (had a cold, dizzy spells, vertigo, bladder infections) since I started school, and so far have only missed 2 hours. So I know I am doing really, really well. Especially considering I am dealing with an overload of intense bipolar symptoms...
And that's what's really getting to me now. These physical health problems are triggering depression, anxiety, mixed states....I feel so sick with my bipolar right now, and that's scary for me. The arguement my bf and I had the other night is still in my mind. I'm still hurting over some things. Again, weighing on my bp.
Anyway, I have to go and get studying. I am so exhausted. Thanks again for listening.
I'm still in bad shape. I've been in a severe mixed state for almost a week now; the last few days have been really bad. Today I'm still feeling the same. I am really trying to stay out of the hospital. I just don't know what to do. The depression part is really bad.