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wen4003
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   Posted 10/16/2007 7:15 AM (GMT -7)   
I don't know if I shoud post this here or on the A/P board, but here goes.  I'm mad as h**l right now.  I am so sick and tired of being told how I should handle myself, things are going to get better - it will just take time, take everything at baby steps, etc, etc, etc.  I don't want to take my psych meds - two of which I don't have any way because of a screw up at the doctor's office (no it wasn't mine - I called a week in advance to let them know I needed the prescriptions called in to the pharmacy and nothing was done), I really could care less about life, I don't want to do anything except leave and not bother coming back.
 
My so-called loving, caring, supportive husband does nothing but hibernate in the cellar at his computer after he gets home from work and errands, etc and eats supper.  He barely talks to me, barely looks at me and hasn't touched me in weeks.   He's supportive when it comes to doing errands, getting the kids to where they need to go, that kind of thing.  It's a good thing he does all that stuff because I can't do it due to the agoraphobia.  I keep trying to get him to talk and he won't - he just ignores me.  I'm the only one who is supposed to spill her guts when she's told to.
 
I truely feel that the worst thing I ever did was check myself into the hospital in July.  It has changed my life in every way possible and not in a good way.  Now I'm just this person who is mentally sick and that's it.  This is so difficult and it makes me wonder I'm supposed to deal with the BP, A/P and Agoraphobia crap.  It's just too much and I'm not sure that I can do this or that I even want to.  Gotta go now, crying too much to go on - what's the point any way?
Agoraphobia, Barrett's Esophagus, Bipolar Disorder, Depression, Fibromyalgia, Panic/Anxiety Disorders, Restless Leg Syndrome, Severe Acid Reflux, Sleep Apnea, and Social Anxiety
 
Meds: Ambien CR, Ativan, Flexeril, Lamictal, Lexapro, Neurontin, Nexium, Requip, Ritalin ER
 

A slip of the foot you may soon recover,

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serafena
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   Posted 10/16/2007 9:25 AM (GMT -7)   
I'm sorry you're having such a tough time, Wen. I imagine it's really frustrating to feel stuck in your house with a husband who's only partially there. It's good that he helps with the household tasks, but you must feel lonely. I know my husband is always afraid of upsetting me. I wonder if it's the same with your husband.

It's true that once you're labeled, everyone who knows treats you differently -- whether they do it intentionally or not. But YOU have to remember that you're not just a walking example of BP, A/P, agoraphobia, etc. You are a whole person, and you deserve to be treated as such. You can overcome your fears, you can go out again, you can demand to be treated as an equal in your household. But you have to believe you deserve it.

Of course a third option is moving in with Jery in Thailand. Apparently he needs to learn gardening. But how would we get you there? ...
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wen4003
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   Posted 10/16/2007 3:42 PM (GMT -7)   
Thanks for responding Serafina - I am such a mess.  I've been crying most of the day and have realized just how lonely I am.  I don't know what my husband thinks - he just won't talk about anything.  I also realized earlier today that my friends have stopped calling and emailing me.  When I would talk with them, we would talk about just regular every day stuff - and almost never about my issues.  It was just nice to have regular conversations, but now that's not happening any more.  I guess they just don't know what to say to me any more or afraid somehow.  I don't know, I'm just guessing.  But you did say something in your post that really rang out to me - "But you have to believe you deserve it."  It's hard to say this, but I guess I really don't believe that I deserve anything at this point.  I feel I've let everyone down and just don't deserve anything good now.
 
The only thing that made me smile and even laugh a little today is your third option of going to Thailand and teach Jery about gardening.  That really would be leaving here, now wouldn't it.  :-) Everyone has always said I'm witchy, so I guess I'll just get on my broom and go.  devil    Thanks for that smile today.
 
Wen
Agoraphobia, Barrett's Esophagus, Bipolar Disorder, Depression, Fibromyalgia, Panic/Anxiety Disorders, Restless Leg Syndrome, Severe Acid Reflux, Sleep Apnea, and Social Anxiety
 
Meds: Ambien CR, Ativan, Flexeril, Lamictal, Lexapro, Neurontin, Nexium, Requip, Ritalin ER
 

A slip of the foot you may soon recover,

but a slip of the tongue you may never get over.

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sukay
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   Posted 10/16/2007 4:33 PM (GMT -7)   

Hi Wen,

Sorry you're feeling so lousy. sad   You said that you feel that somehow you don't deserve to feel well, because you feel you let everyone down.

You didn't let everyone down. You're just going through a very difficult time right now. Reach out to your friends and say "Hello". See how they are doing and what has been going on their lives. It doesn't have to be about you if you don't want it to. Send some e-mails their way and tell them you were thinking about them and just wanted to say hello.

You know our caregivers go through a lot too. Sometimes I think there needs aren't met either by constantly holding up the fort while we are going through our difficult times. I really believe that our spouse's need to know that they are very important and appreciated very much for all they do.

 I think you should tell your husband how you feel and that you would like to try talking with each other or watch a funny movie together instead of him hibernating in the cellar all the time with his computer. You say he hasn't touched you in weeks. Maybe you can initiate a roll in the hay and catch him off guard.

I know all the frustrations of waiting for meds to kick in and constantly having to take baby steps, but that is the only way we are going to make it. Keep pushing. I know it's hard but you have to believe in yourself that you do deserve better and that you are willing to work at it. Believe me it does get better but we constantly have to take care of ourselves too. I would reconsider taking your meds again if you really want to get better. We have to be proactive and I know we all get fed up with things but just take a deep breath and really think about how much your effort is so important to regain your wellness.

I hope some of this helps Wen. I've been there and really know what you are feeling right now. Keep pushin...Hang Tough!

Sincerely,


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wen4003
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   Posted 10/17/2007 8:35 AM (GMT -7)   
Sukay,
 
Thank you for your kind words of encouragement.  I have told my husband how I feel several times over the last week, but the only thing that I get from him is that I have to concentrate on myself and work on getting better.  I've thanked him so many times for taking care of me and picking up the slack/doing what I used to do.  But I've also told him that I need to feel that he still loves me and wants me - in every way. 
 
I'm trying to take care of myself, I am taking my meds - don't want to, but doing it.  I guess I'm just tired of having to push and hang tough - I've had to do it my entire life for various reasons and I'm just tired and really don't have anything left to give to myself.  The last few years have been particuarly rough because of my son's mental health issues - court, placement, tests, etc.  It was so hard on me that I'm just drained - both physically and emotionally.  He's doing well now, but I guess now it's my turn and I just don't know how to do it.
Agoraphobia, Barrett's Esophagus, Bipolar Disorder, Depression, Fibromyalgia, Panic/Anxiety Disorders, Restless Leg Syndrome, Severe Acid Reflux, Sleep Apnea, and Social Anxiety
 
Meds: Ambien CR, Ativan, Flexeril, Lamictal, Lexapro, Neurontin, Nexium, Requip, Ritalin ER
 

A slip of the foot you may soon recover,

but a slip of the tongue you may never get over.

Benjamin Franklin

 


sukay
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   Posted 10/18/2007 1:26 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Wen,
 
I'm sorry I misunderstood you. Yeah....I can understand how awful you must feel. You certainly have been dealing with quite a lot for a long time now. You certainly do need some TLC for yourself right now!
 
I have an idea that might help some.....Could you possibly arrange a night out for yourself to have some fun with a friend or two or maybe a relative? You know something to just make you want to get out of the house and do something different?  You certainly deserve it!  A walk, dinner and a show? Maybe go out to listen to some kareoke? sp? I've never done that but I heard it can be loads of fun. Too bad...we could have checked it out together! tongue
 
I'm glad things are going better for your son right now. That eases a lot of stress, but I'm sorry your husband is being so difficult right now!  He's not helping you right now and HE NEEDS to figure out why he is treating you this way.
 
I hope things start to look up for you Wen. I hope you are able get out of the house and do something nice and fun for yourself for a change. YOU DESERVE IT!!! if you don't like my ideas, try to find something that would really be fun and out of the norm for you and  at least try it.
 
Best Wishes Wen....Keep us posted!!!!
 
 
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   Posted 10/18/2007 8:00 PM (GMT -7)   
I know going out of the house is very difficult, Wen, but what are your boundaries, exactly, if you don't mind me asking? Would you be able to go for a walk? Do you go shopping? Do you ever go out to eat? I ask because I think Sukay's right that you could use a little time spoiling yourself -- doing something just for you, and that's difficult to do at home. It's not impossible, of course. You could get a masseuse to come to your place, for example. Breaking the routine helps a lot, and getting back that feeling of self-worth is crucial. Do you see a therapist? Could you if someone drove you?
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wen4003
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   Posted 10/19/2007 5:58 AM (GMT -7)   

Good Morning Sukay and Serafina (and everyone else),

Thank you both for responding - I just can't get over how loving and helpful this family is.  I thank you both for your suggestions, warm, kind and helpful words. 

On top of everything else that's been happening with the major med screw up at the pdoc's office (which we are still trying to get the antidepressant issue straightened out - this has been an almost 2 week thing with it now), I have had the stomach flu.  This is why I haven't been on the 'puter much in the last few days.  My PCP is seeing a lot of the stomach flu lately, in fact she had it for 3 days herself.  So I'm feeling a little better today and per the docs' orders I'm just drinking gatorade to help get fluids and whatever else is in it back into my system.  Although water is good, it doesn't have all that other stuff in it like gatorade does.  It was either that or go to the ER for some IV fluids because I am so dehydrated.  This may still happen if things don't stop soon - grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.  I need this like I need a 2nd set of ears - LOL.  tongue    I'm really trying to keep my sense of humor with all of this - I'm tired of crying.

Also - another issue that I have to help my daughter through as of this morning - she apparently left off one of the caps to the hamster cage last night after she cleaned it and now the hamster is gone.  Of course she is very upset - she really loved that little rodent; this was a b-day present from Daddy and she hasn't had it quite a month yet.  OY - kids!!!!  So now I'm on the look out for it today - I don't like rodents - yuck.

Sukay, no need to be sorry, I'm not sure that I explained things very well in my posts - I was so upset when I wrote them that I didn't really make sense and didn't explain things very well.  My husband really is caring and thoughtful, and really wants me to get better.  He does realize that the BP will be with me forever, as well the A/P and Agoraphobia might be to some extent, and we are all still learning how to deal with this.  When I'm upset and crying, he tries so hard to reassure me that everything will get better - with time and as long as I allow myself to be patient with the process.  He keeps telling me that he's doing okay with all of this, although there are times that he has to walk away for a bit because he's feeling a little overwhelmed and like most men he just wants to be able to fix things for me and this is not something he can fix. 

During the time that we have been together (12 years), it's been one medical issue after another for me.  A year after we got together I had to have a partial hysterectomy (sp?) because of endometriosis.  During that first year I was in a tremendous amount of pain and towards the end (before the surgery) I was in the doc's office at least once a week so the pain meds could be inceased because I was building such a tolerance to them.  So there went my desire for us to have a child together - we are a blended family - the boys are mine and the daughter his (although I have since legally adopted her because her bio mother gave up her parental rights).  Then along came the full-blown fibromyalgia, I have had issues with it since I was 17 when I was in a serious car crash (but I never knew what it was until a few years ago).  But it became full-blown one Thanksgiving day, I went to take the turkey out of the oven and every single muscle in my body just seized up.  Since then, I have never had a day w/o pain.  One night, a few years ago, we thought I was having a heart attack (we have a family history of them, esp the women at young ages) and my hubby call 911 and I ended up in the hosp for 4 days.  While in the hosp. many, many tests were done; it was determined that my heart was good with the exception of a Mitral Valve thingy that causes a murmur - no biggie; someone suggested that maybe the problem was GERD.  So we decided that while I was still in the hosp. they might as well do an endoscopy thing down my throat to see what was going on.  Not only do I have severe acid reflux but they found that it has caused a condition call Barrett's Esophagus - I had two open sores in my esophagus and this is a pre-cancerous condition.  Now I have to be scoped at least once a year to make sure that nothing has changed.  My then PCP (I've since changed to another) told me that I will have to be on medication for the rest of my life to control the acid or I will most likely develop esophageal cancer.  If I should miss a dose of that med - I pay for it dearly, the acid/heartburn is just about unbearable.  So I try very hard not to forget this one.  Pill box/planners are such a good thing.  This was/is a little scary to me, because my grandmother died of this type of cancer.  My current PCP has also made this extremely clear to me and she stays right on top of this problem, like she does with all the other ones.  She's a great doc.  There have been other issues too, but those are a couple of the big ones.

I have to give my husband a lot of credit - he has never once complained about all of my issues and has always been by my side to support me.  Although there are times he gets frustrated with things, he has never even thought about leaving me.  If had left me because of these issues, I certainly wouldn't have blamed him.  This just proves how much he really loves me and God knows I love him.  I've just been frustrated with him lately because I feel so needy these days and neither one of us is used to that.  I have NEVER been a needy person and it's making me nuts that I need so much of his support now.  It's completely turned everything upside down as far as our relationship goes - it's almost like we just don't know what to do with each other now - LOL.  :-)

Emotionally, I think I'm doing a bit better.  I saw my therapist Wednesday night and instead of doing a lot of the CBT stuff like usual, we just talked about all the issues from the last week or so.  He knows that I am extremely depressed right now and not having the A/D is not a good thing.  He also called me yesterday to check on me (I told him that I am fearful that I may end up back in the hospital soon because I'm such a mess and so depressed) and he was able to fit me in for a session for this coming Monday because he had a cancelation (we originally had an appt schedule for 2 weeks away because that's all he had - he just returned from vaca. and is still trying to catch up with all his patients).  So yay for me, I can get in earlier - I really think that I need that right now.

Serafina, I would love to be able to go out and about on my own, but because of the A/P and Agoraphobia issues my boundaries are pretty limited.  about as far as I can get is my own yard, I have gone out a couple of times and wandered around and I think this weekend I'm going to tend to my flower gardens and start getting them ready for winter.  There's a lot that needs to be cut back and I'm going to put down some manure and some mulch.  It's supposed to be warm this weekend so it's the right time for me to get out there and do it.  I find that working in the gardens - digging, cutting things, getting dirty is therapuetic for me so maybe this will hep my mood improve a little while I'm not on an A/D for now. 

I can go for a walk with my husband or kids, but haven't been able to do it on my own yet - so pathetic, but I know - baby steps.  The therapist has actually told me no more trips to Walmart for a while, because each trip I've taken there has ended up with a very negative/bad result.  He feels that it's just too much for me because of all the stimulation there - lots of people, noise, kids crying, etc.  So, small stores or not at all for now. 

I would like to try going out to eat with my husband (no kids - LOL) and see how that goes.  Going myself, just isn't an option yet. 

The therapist wants me to get out more (of course - LOL) to help get myself desensitized more and more.  I agree with him, but it's just so very hard to do.  But I am going to try being strong and start getting out a little more.  Going to friends houses has been okay too as long as my husband is there for a bit and when I'm comfortable he leaves.  When I'm ready to leave, I just give him a call and he comes to get me or my friend will bring me home.  I'm still not driving yet and I really don't miss it either - and I used to LOVE driving.  Now I just don't care and it actually scares me a little at the though of getting back behind the wheel.

I have gone to get my nails done a couple of times (I know, silly - LOL) with a very dear friend - she's my other "safe" person.  I actually need to have them done again - so maybe that's a good mission for me for this weekend.  It's a small place and not overwhelming and I've even been thinking about trying to do this task on my own.  What do you think?  Should I try it on my own now or wait a little bit longer for that?  Just an opinion - I know your not mental health professionals, but your thoughts (and anyone else's) on it would be good.  Maybe because it's been such a rough week for me, I should just go with my friend and try it on my own another time?  I really don't want to have an A/P attack while there.  Again, what does anyone think about it?  I know to some, this is a silly issue, because there are more important things to deal with than getting my nails done.  But honestly, it keeps me from biting them - I've been a lifelong nail biter -and I'm trying to stop and this is the thing that keeps from biting.  They are strong and I'm afraid I might break a tooth should I bite one - LOL.  I'll admit that I also like the way they look - they are pretty.  Either way, it would get me out of the house for a while.

WOW!  This has ended up being a very long post, much longer than anticipated and I am so sorry for that.  I guess I just need to get a lot out.  I apologize for the novel that was just written :-) .
 
Thanks again for your help and continued support.
 
Wen

Agoraphobia, Barrett's Esophagus, Bipolar Disorder, Depression, Fibromyalgia, Panic/Anxiety Disorders, Restless Leg Syndrome, Severe Acid Reflux, Sleep Apnea, and Social Anxiety
 
Meds: Ambien CR, Ativan, Flexeril, Lamictal, Lexapro, Neurontin, Nexium, Requip, Ritalin ER
 

A slip of the foot you may soon recover,

but a slip of the tongue you may never get over.

Benjamin Franklin

 


sukay
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   Posted 10/19/2007 12:06 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Wen,
 
Gosh reading your last post I now have such a clearer picture of all that you have/are going through. Sorry for all your illness that you have to deal with. I can see why you said you just can't push yourself anymore and are tired of everything! I can understand your frustration.But you really sound like you are a very strong person to be able to deal with everything that you have gone through and are still dealing with. Give yourself some credit!
 
I almost felt like I was reading about myself...I have some health issues that are very complicated and my husband has seen me through all of it and continues to. I too feel that if he ever wanted to walk away from it all I wouldn't blame him either.  I understand the frustration your husband goes through sometimes because I see it in my husband too sometimes. I feel so guilty for dragging him along through this mess with me.
 
I deal with social anxiety a lot. I can relate to it being hard to get out. What makes it easier for me is if I have my husband along too. I agree with your doctor about staying away from busy places, especially right now with all that you are going through. I would definately go with a friend to have your nails done. You're on shakey ground right now and you don't want to push things right now. You can try going alone when things are more controlled for you. That would be a nice goal after things settle down. But in the meantime make sure you have good gloves on when you tackle your yard work!  tongue
 
Why not plan an evening out to dinner with your husband? You both sound like you could use it.  What makes it easier for me is if we go around 4:30-5:00 pm before the rush kicks in at dinner time. It's less stressful for me.
 
 Oh and plan that walk with your hubby and kids. Maybe go out to a trail in the woods where it is quiet and less stimulation. You can see all the autumn colors?
 
Well, I'm glad your therapist is keeping a close eye on you right now. And good for you for being honest with him. Keep talking with him.
 
Good luck with finding the hamster. It is probably so scared too. Maybe if you get the house real quiet, and call it by it's name you might hear it scurrying about? I don't know...I never had to find one before.
 
Well I'll be thinking of you. And we are all here anytime you need us.
 
 
~Sukay~
 
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   Posted 10/19/2007 12:49 PM (GMT -7)   
As moderator, I'm supposed to chide you on the huge post. nono Consider yourself chided. tongue

I'm with Sukay:
I think getting your nails done is a great idea: I find getting my hair or a manicure or pedicure always cheers me up, but definitely take a friend. And try to have fun. You need a little levity in your life to lift some of the depression. That's why I was asking about your boundaries.

The dinner idea is also great. Leave the kids alone, and going early is a great tip, Sukay. Go somewhere quiet (you know, no TGI Fridays) and maybe that will also give you and he a chance to enjoy each other's company a little bit as well. It's true you should push your boundaries but VERY gently.

Like Sukay, I too have social anxiety issues. Mine are also agoraphobic, but a bit different than yours. I just really hate huge crowds. I hate feeling closed in large groups of people. I want to run run run. So I make a go of parades, etc, but I always leave as soon as I get overwhelmed.

Hope you're feeling okay, and be careful not to vacuum up the hamster.


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   Posted 10/19/2007 9:04 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Wen
I just wanted to say I am thinking about you and I am sorry you are going through so much right now. You gave me all kinds of great ideas for my day tomorrow, so maybe we will both be doing the same thing to find a little ego boosting, therapy session of our own!

1. yardwork - hands in the earth!
2. pedicure AND manicure!
3. dinner out with a safe, friendly, loving person - before the rush of annoying people!

Have a wonderful weekend!
 
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serafena
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   Posted 10/20/2007 1:55 PM (GMT -7)   
Hooray! I think they sound like lovely plans for all of us. I'll have to give them a try next week when I need a break.
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   Posted 10/20/2007 2:10 PM (GMT -7)   
I have a wild idea,if you have a lake close by go out & feed the ducks,geese,coots or whatever.I do that here in my town.It's the highlight of my day.........Some days I feed them day or older bread & others I get 40lb bags of whole corn & feed them,they love it......


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wen4003
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   Posted 10/21/2007 8:48 AM (GMT -7)   

Hi Everyone,

First - Serafina, I consider myself to be chided sad and I apologize.  If it happens again, I will split into two posts, if that's okay.

Thank you for your great suggestions, help, and support through this difficult time I've had.  I'm actually start to feel a little better now.  I have all of my meds now as of yesterday - finally, but had to switch from Lexapro to Celexa for the A/D because the insurance company wouldn't approve the Lexapro.  - So ANOTHER med switch - oy!  But I don't anticipate any problems and hope to back on track soon.

I am going at 12:30 today to get my nails done - woohoo!  I'll tell ya what color they are when I get back - LOL - so silly.  But I will say NO PEDICURE - I hate having my feet touched - I know, weird.  redface
 
Then when I get home, I'm going to put on my trusty garden gloves and tend to the garden and get it ready for the winter.  It's a gorgeous day, a little breeze, about 67 degrees and my hubby has already gotten manure for me, so I'm good to go.
 
My hubby and I are talking about going out to dinner within the next week or two so we can have some alone time and see how I do with it.
 
Unfortunately, I don't have a lake/pond close enough for me to go to, but that was a great thought.
 
Ok, gotta go take a shower for my nail appt. so gotta go.  I hope everyone has a wonderful day and if the sun is shining where you are - I hope you get out and enjoy it for a while.
 
Yep. I'm starting to feel better - can ya tell?  yeah
 
Thanks again and great big hugs to all of you ((((((hugs))))))
Wen
 
 
Agoraphobia, Barrett's Esophagus, Bipolar Disorder, Depression, Fibromyalgia, Panic/Anxiety Disorders, Restless Leg Syndrome, Severe Acid Reflux, Sleep Apnea, and Social Anxiety
 
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A slip of the foot you may soon recover,

but a slip of the tongue you may never get over.

Benjamin Franklin

 


serafena
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   Posted 10/21/2007 11:58 AM (GMT -7)   
Hooray for small victories. Just making plans is a victory because without them we think there is no future. But there is. There is always a future and we get to make it as positive as we like. I'm proud of you for making the choice to take some chances -- get out of the house, make time for just you, and just you and your husband. ((Hugs)).
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wen4003
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   Posted 10/22/2007 8:52 AM (GMT -7)   

Yup - hooray for the small victories.

I went to the nail salon and got my nails done - hehehe - i picked an orange paint and then had some halloween designs airbrushed onto them.  Silly, but it's fun.

I then came home put on my trusty garden gloves and worked in my garden for the rest of the day.  Got a lot done too.

On Saturday my husband and I are going to try going out to eat and see how that goes.

Thank you all for your support and help.

Now it's time to go back outside to get more work done.

Wen


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Meds: Ambien CR, Ativan, Flexeril, Lamictal, Lexapro, Neurontin, Nexium, Requip, Ritalin ER
 

A slip of the foot you may soon recover,

but a slip of the tongue you may never get over.

Benjamin Franklin

 


sukay
Veteran Member


Date Joined Feb 2003
Total Posts : 1432
   Posted 10/23/2007 9:00 AM (GMT -7)   

Hi Wen,

I'm thinkin about you today. How is it going with the celexa? Have you noticed a change? I hope it works out well for you.

I wish I could see your new festive nails. I'm glad you got out and did that. I'm also happy to hear you and your hubby are making plans to go out Saturday. Good for you. I hope the both of you have a wonderful time.

Doesn't it feel good to be out working in your garden? I really need to get outside and tend to mine before the weather gets too bad.

Well, have a wonderful day.


~Sukay~
 
Crohns Disease-Remicade since 1999, Methotrexate
Fibromyalgia & Arthritis
Bipolar & Panic/Anxiety-Trileptal, Xanax, Trazadone, Wellbutrin


sukay
Veteran Member


Date Joined Feb 2003
Total Posts : 1432
   Posted 10/26/2007 6:16 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Wen,
 
How has your week been going for you? Are you still feeling well enough to get out this weekend with your hubby? I hope things are working out with the Celexa.
 
I finally tackled my yardwork yesterday. It was a beautiful day. But when it was done I was pooped!
I should have done some yesterday and some today the way you broke it up in two days. I have to remember to pace myself sometimes!
 
Keep in touch. :-)
~Sukay~
 
Crohns Disease-Remicade since 1999, Methotrexate
Fibromyalgia & Arthritis
Bipolar & Panic/Anxiety-Trileptal, Xanax, Trazadone, Wellbutrin


Mr.T
Regular Member


Date Joined Sep 2007
Total Posts : 133
   Posted 10/29/2007 6:09 PM (GMT -7)   

Hello Wen,

i was wondering where you have been so I started looking you up on the boards.  I was very sorry to hear all of the things that you have been going through, but glad to see that you are feeling better.  Now I know we have 2 more things in common and that is nail biting(life long) and acid reflux.  Acid reflux is absolutly horrible.  I know and I finally ended up having fundoplication surgery to stop it.  I must say it was painful because I had to do the old style open fundo, but now I know in the states you can get laproscopic fundo.  It has changed my life 100% I have not had one problem with acid since the surgery(knock on wood).  If only there were a sugery for BP.

Well, anyway, I just wanted to let you know I was thinking about you and while your gardening if you find  bunch of grasshopper, scoop them up through them into a frying pan with oil salt and pepper and have a nice evening snack.  It's a Thai favorite. Well, just about any bug is, but i like the crickets.  Just think of all the new things you could experience on a trip to Thailand.(don't worry we have "regular" food as well)  Take care tongue

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