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Casem
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   Posted 11/6/2007 8:39 AM (GMT -7)   
Well...after endless days since my hospital stay, I finally met with my new pdoc. She was amazing. I love her! She was out of the office last week because she went to see the Dalai Lama! Yes....the Dalai Lama was at Indiana University and she was able to hear him speak. Anyway, my anxiety was still through the roof so she was able to see me at my best...talking a million miles a minute. She asked me to stop and breathe several times.
 
.....and one of the best things.....she has her beautiful golden retriever in the office with her....he just sits at your feet and puts his head on your foot....it is the most comforting feeling......
 
Anway.....she took me off of the Provigil and doesn't want me to take it ever again b/c of the anxiety. She increased the topamax gradually over the next week or so from 100 to 200. I still have the xanax. I will be meeting with another nutritionist and taking Omega 3 and Folic Acid supplements. I will see the pdoc every two weeks and a therapist once a week. She doesn't want to diagnose anything right now. She just wants decrease all of the anxiety right now so we can get to the root of the issues. I feel hopeful today and a bit better......
 
I have also been posting on anxiety forum, too. I feel a bit guilty taking up everyone's time here when my issues really aren't regarding bp!
 
Here is a note regarding my bp support issues.....Michael is in his 9th and final day in his partial hospitalization program at Laurelwood. Today we will find out what their recommendations are for an outpatient program closer to his home. So far,  so good.......


 
Casem
 

Post Edited (Casem) : 11/6/2007 11:50:37 AM (GMT-7)


olivia of course
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   Posted 11/6/2007 3:19 PM (GMT -7)   

Casem,

I really glad that you are doing much better.  Also that you have found a pdoc that you are happy with, that is very hard to find sometimes.  I hope your anxiety gets better with time and you find the right meds combo to help you out.  You should try to take it easy especially since we don't want you to have high anxiety.  It is not a problem for you to post here at all, we love having you here.  I hope we have been a good support system for you.

I hope things work out good for Michael, I know it has been rough in the past.  Hang in there!


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loving frustrated wife
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   Posted 11/6/2007 5:58 PM (GMT -7)   
Casem, You are already one of us...so the fact that you are ending the relationship potentially with your BP does not mean you can not be part of us and reach out, and also give support back. Just know we are here for you regardless of your dx and care. HUGS...LFW

serafena
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   Posted 11/7/2007 8:39 AM (GMT -7)   
Yeah! You're ours! You were ours first and you can post wherever you like. I'm just delighted that you found a wonderful person you connected with, you have someone to help you with the anxiety, and you have the anxiety board to help you deal with the issues specific to that problem. Of course, most of us have anxiety too... plus we're cuter... I'm just saying ...

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Casem
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   Posted 11/7/2007 10:45 AM (GMT -7)   
Oh you all make me feel so loved I could just burst!!! I could smile for days! thanks for the love, love, and more love.

The additional topamax is helping in the morning, I can already feel a bit more calm as the day starts. It will be interesting to see what happens as the dose increases. What I really found interesting is that pdoc said, in her experience (30 + yrs), topamax is much better for anxiety than as a mood stabilizer and that she is surprised that the pdoc at Laurelwood "went" toward bp for me.....but we shall see.

Michael is starting his outpatient program at another center closer to our side of town on Monday. On his last day yesterday, his therapist told him that he had a gift for helping others in the group and it was something he had not seen in many people before. So far he seems to have embraced the disorder and the bp/dx family who share his pain. I could actually hear his smile on the phone when he spoke of his dual group and the leader. The seroquel is making him tired, but he is still on it. His dad and I are a bit nervous about this weekend.....his dad is going out of town and Michael doesn't have the boys....it will be a lot of alone time for someone who doesn't usually do well alone.

He and his therapist have talked at length about his last time in AA and how much he enjoyed the comradery and how much strength and support he drew from the group.....I hope he uses all of his resources available to him....and doesn't have a slip.....but that is his journey, not mine......

thanks, again, for the love and support.

Oh......my sleep study is finally scheduled for this thursday night! Finally, we can confirm all of the crazy sleep apnea issues and what my nightly needs are!
 
Casem
 


sukay
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   Posted 11/7/2007 9:53 PM (GMT -7)   

Hi Casem,

I hope you still post with us too! Like serafena said, a lot of us around here have anxiety issues, like me. But I can understand wanting to deal with people who are living with anxiety on a daily basis.

But we are all invested in so many other things that you share with us; Your new therapist, your sleep study, your diagnosis, etc. So please continue to keep us posted. Nobody has to stick with only one board. You can post where ever you want. But we sure like you around here.

See you around,


~Sukay~
 
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loving frustrated wife
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   Posted 11/7/2007 10:44 PM (GMT -7)   
I am not suprised that she doesn't think you are BP. I would have been suprised if she felt you were. The depression or anxiety stuff...maybe, but she is the professional. I am glad you really liked her. I hope your working relationship is very successful for you. Hugs, LFW

wen4003
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   Posted 11/8/2007 11:55 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Casem, 
 
I'm glad to hear that you are doing better and you just seem happier - which is a great thing!!  I'm glad that you will be doing the sleep study and hopefully the apnea issues will be addressed. 
 
I too have sleep apnea and use a CPAP machine at night.  My husband teases me when I put the mask on and asks me if I'm going snorkeling - LOL.  But it works - it provides continuous positive air pressure (CPAP) to make it so you don't stop breathing, wake up and start breathing again, etc.  It will make it so that you can get into a good deep sleep and feel refreshed in the mornings because you have been able to get a full nights sleep.  Let us know the results and what you will be doing for treatment.
 
Again, I'm happy that you are feeling better.
 
Take care,
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Casem
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   Posted 11/9/2007 12:25 PM (GMT -7)   
The sleep study went well last night...the amount of electrodes and monitores are amazing! I can't believe I actually fell asleep. I woke up atleast 4 times to pee...but I am sure they are used to that! They were so friendly and explained everything so thoroughly, my anxiety was quelled rather quickly. No I will anxiously await my appt. to review my test results on 11/25. What does Tom Petty say...."the waiting is the hardest part"?
 
Casem
 


olivia of course
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   Posted 11/10/2007 2:21 PM (GMT -7)   
Casem,

I am glad the sleep study went well, and you were able to sleep with all the stuff they attached to you. 11/25 is a bit away, but the results will be there before you know it. Try not to think too much about it.
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sukay
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   Posted 11/11/2007 6:14 AM (GMT -7)   

Hi Casem,

Thinking of you as well today. I hope things are getting better for you anxiety wise. Finally you are going to get some answers on your sleep issues. Yeah, you're right...Tom Petty did say that and he is RIGHT!!!! Hang in there! cool

I'm so glad to hear that you hit it off so well with your pdoc!!! That is the BESTEST!!!!

I'm so glad that you are getting help for yourself and things are finally starting to move along for you. Keep up the good work!


~Sukay~
 
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Casem
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   Posted 11/11/2007 7:05 PM (GMT -7)   
Thanks to everyone for the care and concern and for the kind words....

Wen....do you really notice a difference with your CPAP machine? During the day, I am so fatigued....I can't wait to see if this will make a difference....I am very interested to hear of your experiences....

Thanks!
 
Casem
 

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