thank you guys so much for responding, i really needed it. some days are just ok and some days are like you, crippling. thanksgiving sucked really bad. i have crohns so eating is a huge issue for me and for some reason that day the depression was really really bad. i watched the parade and i was ok but as i was getting ready to go to grammas it hit me like a truck. couple that with my stomach really hurting me and feeling sick i was a mess. i tried laying down and that didnt work and i ended up sitting in the living room by myself crying for like 15 minutes until i finally went to my family and asked them to move cars so i could go home.
i just feel like crying all the time, and i am listless. i do have my distractions, i try to get out even if it is to the grocery store and i knit a lot, i really like that. i have therapy again next week so thatll help. im also going tanning and taking viatmin d to see if thatll help.
but thanks for your support. i hate it that i come back only when i get bad becasue i feel like i abandon you guys. but i do appreceiate the kind words and the understanding, that is what i need most. someone who undertands most. hopefully my meds will kick in soon and help. if not in 3 weeks i go to see my pdoc and if im not better by then, im going to go off the medication for my tremors. its a hard decision becasue it has helped but its decreasing the effectiveness of my head meds and my mental health is more important to me.
ah, oh well thanks for being a sounding board, i needed to get it all out.
Crohn's Disease Diagnosed 12/24/03 (Thats Right, Merry Christmas to me!)
Im 26 years old, and am currently only taking remicade, protonix and evil prednisone for my CD. am on quite the cocktail for my BP however: Geodon, Lamictal, Celexa, Buspar and Klonopin.
Im also on lipitor for high cholesterol caused by a prior BP med. im on fentanyl patches for pain also, and i take some meds prn for my allergies, asthma, and migrianes.
"We are all worms but I do believe i am a Gloworm"
^always makes me smile^