Sukay-this really is a great idea.
As always, I am thinking of my HW family.
Here is my update;
Trying to work my way up on the Lamictal. Started at 25mg...going up to 75 to start. I see my pdoc in two weeks. So far, not feeling anything with the meds; which is normal..It's only been two weeks. I am a little anxious over it, but trying to stay as positive as I can.
Today has been a wreck. Bf and I had a major fight and I've been cryng a lot. My mood started to shift yesterday from being hypomanic for about 2 weeks, to starting to feel a bit depressed; definitely irritable. I've had a couple of panic attacks today; I called some crisis lines, and both people I spoke to today really got me through.
Somehow, I am still doing extremely well in school. I'll have my updated average next week sometime. It will still be in the 90's. To think I may actually graduate an honour student. That makes me feel really good. So--there's my positive thought for the update
Hopefully tonight is less stressful. Big hugs for all of you.
Serafena--I think daycare is great for kids! I'm happy your Rosie is loving it...that makes it easier on Mom..!
Great idea....thanks for thinking of everyone! I am glad to hear you had such a wonderful family time.
I had a nice time with my 15 yr. old sister this weekend. We saw some movies, she slept over, I let her drive my car to get some practice in, and we went with my mom to visit my grandma.
On the flip side...I have been having some major panic attacks...so my pdoc has increased my topamax gradually and I am @ 175 for the next few days until I get to 200. I am on 1 mg of Xanax XR, but I am still struggling. I finally got my sleep study results back last week , and I have moderate/severe sleep apnea, I was fitted for my mask, and I am just waiting for my CPAP machine. I was so hopeful last week and I just want to feel better and everyone I talk to with sleep apnea says what a difference it makes. I call every day to check on the status, but it is caught up between the medical supply place and the insurance company, now they are saying 7 - 10 days. I know everyone is busy...but COME ON!!! I just want to feel better. It is a viscious cycle. I am doing everything I am supposed to be doing and it is taking forever to feel better. The sleep apnea drains my energy..the fatigue is terrible...no desire to do anything...depression...then throw in my allergies and my eating disorder. I have not been eating well at all. EXCEPT for yesterday and today. I finally took a stand and said....I know what works and I know what doesn't....so JUST DO IT.
Another thing....My pdoc was supposed to recommend a therapist (within her group) three weeks ago and that hasn't happened, no matter how many messages I leave. And to make matters worse, the pdoc's secretary keeps getting my FMLA and STD paperwork wrong, so I haven't been paid for my Leave of Absence from my hospital stay.