Bipolar IIIt is a melancholy of mine own, compounded of many simples, extracted from many objects, and indeed the sundry contemplation of my travels, in which my often rumination wraps me in a most humorous sadness. -- William Shakespeare
I understand what you are going through with your family driving you crazy because they don't acknowledge your fight with depression. My family and friends are the same way. Alot of it is due to ignorance or not willing to accept depression as a problem. I hear the same thing and also "you have always been this way" or "I don't know why you have to take those meds, its not that bad". They don't understand or are just in denial.
The best thing I did was find this site. I have made a new family that really seem to care, and you will too. It gives you something to get up in the morning for. I always get happy when I recieve a message and know someone cared enough to write. It is strange how quickly you make friends here.
Right now my life is a bit mixed up as well, but right now I am here for you. Sometimes you think you are over exagerating or you just don't know where to start. It is like a rollercoaster many times. Hang in there we will be here for you.
thank you guys very much,
i do have to admit that i am spending most of my time in my pajamas, im just more comfortable. i sit on the couch a lot and i knit or watch tv. its kind of like the couch is my safe place, i cant really describe it. its really hard for me to be like this. between my bp, my crohns disease and my neurological issues i feel pretty broken. its so frustrating becasue im 26 years old can only work 2 days a week and have to live and mooch off my parents. which i count myself lucky for and i know they dont mind, id have nowhere else to go and they like having me home. just makes me feel helpless and non functional, especially when i see my same age and younger siblings out on their own and doing so well. i do puzh myself to try to go out of the house and i do substitute teach 2ce a week but that is a huge accomplishment when i do.
i think right now i am just taking this all much harder than usual bacasue of the depression.
you guys make me feel so good becasue you accpet this as REALITY. and now just a case of the blues. that it can be debilitating. i lurk every day on this forum but i dont always say much, i dont feel lik ei have much to add usually. so i do know a lot about all of you and i appreciate you taking time out to help me. its hard for me to admit it but i do need the help very much.