Bipolar IIIt is a melancholy of mine own, compounded of many simples, extracted from many objects, and indeed the sundry contemplation of my travels, in which my often rumination wraps me in a most humorous sadness. -- William Shakespeare
Awesome thread Serafena..I am so not looking foward to a few things over the next several days. It's my bf's birthday on Sunday, right before New Years', so we have to go out for that on Friday night-lots of people, late, late night. I feel so bad 'cause it's his birthday, but I hate social stuff so much. It makes me so uncomfortable. The same for New Years'...we have to go out, lots of people, late late night. Ugh, I am getting so anxious just thinking about all of it.
There's not much I can do about it either. I have to go to these things, and it's going to be hard. I can do breathing, but really, that's not going to make me feel any less uncomfortable. I hate being around a lot of people. It's the worst thing for me.
Anyway, don't mean to be such a downer; you all had such positive, productive things to say...
Well, Merry Christmas to everyone. Mine was yesterday and a bit hectic, but made it through. I went to Bank's Christmas recital and spoke to M about keeping the kids from me and we came to a short term agreement. He was so cute up there and when he saw me he ran and lept off of the stage into my arms. It was absolutley the best feeling one can have. It had been a month since I saw him and Bem. Then M brought Bem out from the school yard. My little princess had such a big smile and she clumsly ran to me. Oh my heart. Please God don't let him take the kids away again. It would kill me, but I have to accept the fact I am in Thailand and the rules are differen't here. Well as what we agreed I go the kids Christmas eve. I was I was sooo happy to get my kids Christmas eve. We stayed up playing until 11. Uhhhh. Wrong move there, but I got them to sleep in about 30 minutes so not too awful bad. Then I had to wait a bit until Santa brought down all of the gifts. I didn't get to sleep til after 1am and up at 7am. Not easy, and to my suprise the kids slept til 9. If I only knew. Once everyone was up it was a field day. Wrapping paper everywhere. I think I got some good pictures.It lasted about an hour then it was time to figure out all of the games. Not easy, I must say. I started cooking around 3 and we well some of us ate at 6pm. Not very traditional. Some were swimming others just chatting. Kind of upset me to fix a big dinner and not get everyone to eat at the same time, but I just kept it to myself, ate and then watched tv in the main living room. Eventually everyone ate.
It did get a bit hectic at times, but I think I held my cool(and tongue) pretty well. We had 3 families with a combined 7 children under 5 stop by to get some gifts and they had a bbq. It was fun to see, but that got on my nerves after awhile. Luckily there are only a few holidays we have to do this. The smiles and laughter were really worth it in the end.
The biggest thing that pushed my blood pressure through the roof is work calling all day. They know it's Christmas for me and still managed to call 1 too many times. Anyway, today is a new day. I hope that each and every one of you have a wonderful Christmas and a very Happy and Healthy New Year.
Merry POST Christmas to all!
My x-mas eve dinner party went off beautifully. Food was divine and I was quite relaxed all the way through. Being that organized REALLY helped this year. I even had time to shower and change and do my hair and make-up prior to everyone arriving. It was great! My mother asked to stay over and have x-mas morning with us, and my H went along with it without any negative comments to me in private about that. I LOVED THAT!!!!!!!!!!
The ONLY negative thing in the whole few days is that my back has gone into a very severe pain and I am nervous I did something. I am back on my pain killers. I am hoping that it is nothing and will loosen up again. But my spine doc told me that my disc at L5/S1 is shrinking more rapidly then he would like...SO...I'm nervous. But, I am doing all the things I have been trained to do to take care of me during this, I'm doing my exercises, my stretching, and taking my medication and using the heating pad. Hopefully when I see my rehab doc next week, I'll be better. I'd call her now, but she is out of town until then. If it doesn't improve, I'll also try and get into the spine doc earlier than my next appointment in late Feb.
Anyway, I wish you all a relaxed week and a Happy healthy NEW YEAR!!!!!!!! LFW