I've lost about ten pounds in two weeks, all of it stress-related. I've had a time of it. two weeks ago, I submitted my manuscript the morning, via email, and in the afternoon, found out it didn't go out. I found out at work, and not until there was about two hours left to deadline. I traversed mountains to get home to send it out again. That's when it happened. I turned the computer on..... it turned off. I said, 'ok, this isn't happening, so I tried again. on......off. Now I try the plug thing, you know, because this really isn't happening to me. so I unplug it and wait and plug it in again. on..off. ok, so maybe I need to wait a while with it unplugged, you know, give it a rest or something BECAUSE THIS REALLY ISN'T HAPPENING TO ME.
That was two weeks ago. I now have a new Dell, because that one broke that morning,a nd they replaced it in about five days. I wound up submitting something that day that went out unformatted because my neighbor didn't have MS Word, he had Wordpad. My committee didn't even show me what I sent because it was so bad. I went to the neighbors to try to get this thing out via email with twenty minutes left to deadline (and let me tell ya, with tables and graphs, it ain't pretty unformatted. My committee took a look at this thing and I was basically told Ellen, you're not ready. It was pretty horrible (can I sue Dell for anguish????)
Now I have just handed in the manuscript my sponsor approved of (another story "Ellen, no gridmarks on the tables and get that title on the side, not on top") I don't know from tables, so I was at the mercy of my clinic's secretary, and had to get behind the pumpkin roll she was baking for the xmas party. The tables were a nightmare in and of themselves, and will probably be again before it's done. I am waiting for the data meeting to be scheduled, so they can tell me to change them again, I'm sure. so I can breathe for a night. I actually ate a decent dinner and don't have a hole in my stomach. I went on prilosec after that day two weeks ago, my stomach has never been that bad. After this meeting I can hand them my conclusions and after they give me feedback on them, we can schedule the orals. Now I know why they put you through so many hoops during a dissertation. I know because I have a new mission: To become the adviser some poor graduate student and make them go through this someday.
Was I really on chemo this time last year?
Been lurking and sometimes giving feedback here and there. I hope you all have safe and happy holidays. Be well!!!
"Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall." -Confucius