Know your worries all too well but I also know that you are going to be just fine. I had all of my check-ups last month (though my onc doesn't do scans) bloodwork, chest xrays, etc. and got the thumbs up. Then and only then are you able to breathe a little better. Hang in there and if you need to talk, give me a call. It has been way too long since we have spoken!