Benign Cyst or Malignant?

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mrslovelycat
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   Posted 3/15/2012 12:19 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi everyone.
I can't believe I am finding myself here. Shock is more like it. I have read some of your posts, and responses..very encouraging and helpful. I wonder where the women are that posted years ago...
I turned 40 in June of last year (2011) it's been fun ever since. (scarcastic tone here.) 
I had a routine mammogram done earlier tonight, was a nervous wreck, because I worry about everything..lol   Well I guess I had reason to be. As the tech was done with my first right breast pictures I followed her to the computer screen where she was checking them to make sure she got the shots right, there right on the screen was my big old right breast with a perfectly round, white pea size spot. It's located above the nipple, looks like in the middle of the tissue. Well I said nothing at that point. She finished the left breast pictures, and again I followed her over while she reviewed them. She then explained to me what the radiologist looks for..I saw no white spots, so I asked her to show me the first Xray. She did. I pointed to the white spot, and said "that is something right there, what is it?" I think I made her uncomfortable, and put her on the spot. She seemed a little like she didn't want to address it with me..which I can totally understand. But those are my pictures of my body and I want to see and understand what I see. She then told me that "bad things in a womans breast" are usually irregular in shape..she said it is her "unprofessional" opinion that the white spot is  just a cyst..and I shouldn't worry. She said that the I probably will get a call from the radiologist tomorrow to come back for an ultrasound to get a closer look.
YES I am worrying.  Cysts are what cancer is!!  Is the shape that important?  Mass? Cyst? Oval? Square??  What is the difference. I saw just one white spot. It wasn't a bunch of tiny white specs, it was just one bright white circle spot. I have googled xrays of cancer tumors and cysts. What I have found actually coinsides what she said about the shape. The benign cysts were round, and I guess filled with liquid, the cancerous tumors were more of splotchy, and sort of uneven round..almost like a paint drop. Does anyone know what an intial finding on a mammogram can tell you?  I expect a call from the radiologist tomorrow, and an ultrasound of course to be ordered.  This is just a nightmare. I have twins boys age 10, I cannot leave them yet. I need to be here for them. I cannot leave my husband, I have known him since high school. I love them all..and do not want to miss out on my boys adulthood. I have several other factors that bring me to believe this might be cancer..I smoke. I have smoked since I was 15 years old. I have gained alot of wieght due to being out of work for 5 years to stay home and be there for my family.  Those factors alone have made me feel like I am a ticking time bomb. I also feel by this poor techs reaction to me, her hedging, that she felt that this was serious.  I am a wreck. I lost my adoptive mother lose her battle with cancer which started in her breast. She didn't smoke, but was a little over weight. I never saw her Xrays. She told me the lump was round, and that she could feel it. I can't feel mine. I tried when I got home and couldn't find it. My doctor gave me a breast check 2 months and didn't feel anything. I am scared. I don' t know what I will want to do if this is cancer. I watched my mothers hair fall out, the throwing up, how miserable she was. I cannot put my 10 year old boys through that. I don't want them to see me suffer like I saw her suffer. I saw her scars after she had her breast removed. I drove her to radiation when the cancer had spread to her brain, then back to her body onto her bones. I watched this crap for 3 years...I can't do that to my family. I love them too much. NOT to mention I do not have health insurance. So how will I pay for this?  If I chose to fight it, I want the best care possible and that would mean travelling an hour away. Would I even get the best care possible without insurance??  This is not what our family needs, NO family needs this. I know!  My heart goes out to each and everyone of you, your children and husbands that have been touched by this ugly disease. It is a nightmare for all. Sadly it is also becoming too common, and the age is getting younger.  Love to you all. Blessings  XOXOX

barkyboys
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   Posted 3/16/2012 6:39 PM (GMT -6)   
First of all, this may not be breast cancer, so don't bury yourself yet! I was kind of where you are 17 years ago. I had lost my own mother to cancer when I was 7. When I was 36, I found a lump in my breast that felt different, went to the doctor, he found a second lump, ordered a mammogram. Mammogram said all is well. No sign of cancer. Doctor insisted on a biopsy. Two types of invasive breast cancer later, the surgeon told me, "this is not the end of the world." Easy for him to say! I thought this was the beginning of the end for me. Did I mention that this was 17 years ago? Yes, I think I did. LOL

The good news is, this very well might not be a breast cancer. Cysts are not breast cancer. A sonogram will determine if a mass is fluid-filled. It could also be a fibroadenoma (benign breast tumor) that has been there for years, since you cannot feel it, even now.

So try not to dig your grave until you know what is going on! I know how hard it is to watch someone you love die from this disease. We never want our loved ones to go through that. But they get through it. You have. I have. And fingers crossed, our children won't have to see either of us go out that way.

Let us know what you hear from your doctor. And try not to worry when you don't know if there is something to worry about!

Hugs...
BEV
Bev
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mrslovelycat
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   Posted 3/17/2012 10:16 AM (GMT -6)   
Bev,
Thank you for responding..and your rational and kind words. :)

I got a call from the radiologist yesterday, they want me back for another mammo on that side and an ultrasound. In his report he said (which the receptionist read to me) he found a dense round mass, which is probably benign, but wants to get more pictures. I googled "dense round mass" it came up with all different scenerios. Alot were of cysts caused by pre-menopause. Ironically my sister (bilogical) is going through the exact same thing. They found a cyst or mass in her left breast last month. She had an ultrasound done, he seemed to think it was benign, but wanted her back in 6mo. to see if it changed at all. Well, she got a letter in the mail from the radiologist, he wants her back in 3 months. She is a wreck like me. It's wierd we are going through this at the same time. It's odd.

anyways..thanks again for your kind words. I know I shouldn't compare my situation with my mothers..I guess all those painful memories have come back during this. I hope and pray that my situatuon as well as my sisters ends better.
I will come back next week and update.
Thank you

barkyboys
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   Posted 3/17/2012 7:59 PM (GMT -6)   
Oh, believe me, I had myself dead and buried as well when I was diagnosed. I definitely compared myself to my own mom. I was sure I wasn't going to live to see my two girls grow up, and I thought I should just start planning the funeral! So don't beat yourself up for jumping the gun. We all do it! I didn't know anyone who had been diagnosed with cancer and lived, back then.

Hope all goes well for you and your sister. Let me know!

Hugs...
BEV
Bev
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mrslovelycat
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Date Joined Mar 2012
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   Posted 4/4/2012 8:40 AM (GMT -6)   
Update:
 
It was not a malignant anything..it was a benign tumor Fibroadenoma. I was more than relieved. The radiologist said that it is harmless and not a precurser to becoming malignant. I was a little surprised I have this, because they usually occur in younger woman..and I am in pre-menopause.  I will take it never-the-less.  :)   I guess this is a lesson learned that you can't always assume the worst when you find something in your breast, it truly could be anything..even if it doesn't hurt. Wait till you get all the facts..and try to think positive. It's hard believe me..but listen to your techs that do the mammogram, try to look at your pictures yourself..which is what I did. Be tenacious when it comes to your mammo, ask questions.
 
Good luck to all of you beautiful women out there!  XOXOX 
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