Hey, I am not fearless, but I am very susceptible to drugs. Like when I had my daughter over 30 years ago, they gave me a little valium and I never woke up for the delivery. Don't think I am lucky though, my normal bp is 90/50 and everyone thinks I go into shock after surgery and they won't give me anything for pain. Ha Ha.
I was diagnosed after a long drawn out process -- am I beginning to sound like the drama queen?-- and had to pitch a fit to get surgery before Christmas. One doc even wanted to wait until Feb 20 for the surgery. So no, I did not cry at first -- went through Thanksgiving -- got the diagnoses for real the day before and did not cry until I went home by my self after the surgery and started staying alone. At some time, it will just come, so don't worry. Too much is going on now.
Just know we are here for you whenever.