Things have been really hectic here. It started right after Labor Day and it's still going on. But I've been reading everyone's posts and it sounds like life has been pretty stressful for lots of us. I've been walking a lot on the track at our gym while listening to my ipod and that seems to be the only place I can relax.
Our leak is still in the "almost finished" stage. Mostly I ignore it.
I'm scheduled for a colonoscopy on Nov. 21 but am trying to move that up to earlier in Nov. Just have a feeling about things.
This week I'm going to NY to see the onc.; that's always good for an anxiety headache or 2. Yesterday, I called the gastroenterologist's office re: the colonoscopy. His receptionist put me on hold and then told me he'd call back at 1:00, right after lunch. Well, duh, since when does lunch finish at 6:30 pm? That's when the same receptionist, not even the dr, called back. Gosh, how I detest having to have any contact with medical system.
Our COBRA is expiring on Dec. 31 so we've been looking into new health ins. Researching THAT actually can cause a major depression. How can some snot in an office who knows nothing about BC ask me: "if your 7 yrs. out from DX, why are you still taking a cancer drug (femara)?" It takes a lot to get me going, but I wanted to reach into the phone and throttle her. I have never been without health ins. in my whole life. Now, because I need to take femara as well as lipitor because femara raises blood cholesterol, apparently I'm a VERY bad risk. I know we'll work this out, but why does it always have to be so difficult?
Isn't the fact that we've all survived this wretched disease worth anything? Does everyone have to get cancer in order for anyone to actually empathize. I'm really disgusted.
Well, my "quick hello" wasn't so quick or very cheerful either. Forgive me, I'm just at the end of my thether. Hugs from here, Luci
In the depth of winter, I finally learned that within me lay an invincible summer. Albert Camus