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exqualls
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   Posted 8/11/2016 7:21 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi, this is all new to me. i am 56 and have always been in great health. And although i am well-educated, i am embarrassed to say i took a "keep my head buried in the sand" approach to screenings. The last time i saw my OBGYN was when i gave birth to my last child 21 years ago. Three or four months ago i noticed a lump in my left breast seemed to be growing daily (I've always had large, lumpy breasts). The growing lump was accompanied by extreme pain, sometimes lasting 24 hours a day, other days, just a few stabs of pain off and on.
I finally went to my OBGYN for pap smear and breast exam. She felt lumps in both my breasts and sent me for a diagnostic mammo and ultrasound. When she called with the results a few days later, her voice gave away great concern... she sounded like SHE was in tears to have to tell me. She said I had bilateral malignant tumors in both breasts... a 2.5 cm lump in the right breast, and a 3.6 cm mass (plus other masses) in the left breast (the painful one).
I am scheduled for a biopsy and MRI in a few days. I've never known anyone who's had breast cancer before, so I have no idea how alarmed I should be (other than the morbid tone in her voice when she told me the news).

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   Posted 8/17/2016 7:18 AM (GMT -6)   
well, i had the biopsies yesterday. actually, the radiology oncologist re-ultrasounded me, and then did the biopsies, taking out 5 samples from the left side and 3 from the right, and leaving behind titanium markers to show the exact location of each sample taken. none of that hurt, as i was numbed thoroughly. then i was immediately mammo'd again (so they could make sure the markers were in place). the excellent nurses who attended me and the doctor assured me that i would not need anything stronger than a tylenol and ice bags when the lidocaine wore off, however, i think i could have used something stronger. the left breast still hurts this morning. now i just wait to hear from the doctor. he said he will call me tomorrow afternoon with the preliminary findings, and then we'll go from there. the anxiety of waiting to hear is overwhelming, but off to work i go!

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   Posted 8/18/2016 9:54 PM (GMT -6)   
well it seems like learn a little and wait a lot... my radiology oncologist called with the preliminary results of the biopsies, and the results were a LITTLE better than anticipated. Malignant masses were only found in the left breast, the right breast masses were benign. so.... now i have an MRI scheduled for next week, and then with a surgeon a week after that. so i feel my wheels are spinning... I've been told now for weeks that i have malignant cancer, but we're just not down to the nitty-gritty yet... knowing about the hormone receptors positive/negative and the stage, and if i'll have chemo/surgery/chemo/radiation, or surgery/chemo/radiation, or surgery/radiation, or blah blah blah... i need a plan. this interval time of knowing i have it, but not knowing what is going to be done about seems interminable.

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   Posted 8/20/2016 5:34 PM (GMT -6)   
Sorry your doing the hurry up and wait game. That is so frustrating. Let us know what they decide.
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   Posted 8/24/2016 7:07 AM (GMT -6)   
today i have an MRI. I'm really not sure what the MRI is for, since I've now had 2 ultrasounds, 2 mammograms, and the biopsies, but I'm sure they know what they're doing. I got the first appointment with my surgeon set for 9/1. I'm told he is excellent, although with a brusque bedside manner and a bit "crusty". I guess I can handle a less than stellar personality knowing that he is considered the best in his field in our area. Right? lol, trying to convince myself it's okay not to feel warm and comfy with my doctor.

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   Posted 8/24/2016 3:27 PM (GMT -6)   
My boss is a vet and while she has horrible people skills and working for her can be trying, she is awesome with animals. No one else I would trust more.

Keep me posted.
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exqualls
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   Posted 9/2/2016 6:26 PM (GMT -6)   
here's my update: surgery date 9/28. i am ER+ and PR+, and the initial pathology report for HER2 is 1+, so we are waiting on the FISH test to make sure it is negative. i know nothing about what regimen of chemo/radiation/drugs that i'll be on yet. i'll be meeting with an oncologist and a plastic surgeon a week or so before my surgery. i don't know my stage yet, but the path report said Grade 2. i also saw in the path report "ki-67: 48%", whatever that means! There are so many unknowns still, but it feels good (today) to have a surgery date. Yesterday it did NOT feel so good. i was a mess after the appointment, but i felt very confident with my surgeon. i am slowly telling girlfriends, and a few friends at work.

i hate that every conversation is about cancer now, which is why i like just saying it all here! if i get all the facts/worries/self-doubts/loss of confidence out through writing in this forum, i can hopefully keep it from being the ONLY TOPIC with all my friends.

i forgot to say the MRI located a third lump in the left breast. There are 2 large lumps (approx 3.5 cm and 2.5 cm) that "kiss" each other, as the doctor put it, and in the MRI, it revealed a much smaller one underneath those 2 that was not visible in the mammograms or in the ultrasounds. Also, the MRI "lit up" 2 other small spots an inch or so below the left breast... not under the breast like the hidden lump, but lower on the body, like an inch under the bra line.

i know other folks read these posts, and i am just wondering if anyone reading this has had the same diagnosis as myself (that i know of so far)....ER+, PR+, HER2-, grade 2, stage unknown at this point, and if so, what did your treatment entail?

I am so very thankful for a place to chronicle this new and scary experience, and i'd be ever so grateful if anyone would share their own stories with me.

Post Edited (exqualls) : 9/3/2016 8:14:13 AM (GMT-6)


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   Posted 9/5/2016 11:59 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi:

I came onto this forum to look up another health conditions and something drew me to the breast-cancer posts. I joined the forum so that I could respond to your post.

I am 56 years old and after a routine mammogram in April 2015, I was called back in for an ultrasound. After the ultrasound, I was taken in for a needle biopsy. Just one day after the biopsy, I received a phone call that there were three small lumps; one was cancer the others were pre-cancer. I will never forget that moment. I simply started screaming. That was a Friday so I had to wait until Monday to see the surgeon and start down the path of tests and specialists and making my treatment decision.

I won't say that I know what you're going through because everybody handles this horrible news differently. But I hope I can be of some support. I assume you have been told that estrogen receptor positive is a good thing? It means that the breast cancer may have been caused by long-term use of birth control pills or other things in your life that added to your estrogen. It also means that medications that further suppress estrogen may be used after your treatment is over.

I won't get into too many of the medical aspects, as I'm sure you have enough people bombarding you with that information. What I can tell you is to gather as much information as possible about your options and make the decision to feels right for you. I had to go back to my surgeon three times before I was able to decide what was right for me.

The emotional side of things is so hard because when you first get the diagnoses there's so much shock and then suddenly you are put on a train that is moving 100 miles an hour. You are tossed from one doctor to another for one test after another and bombarded with all sorts of new abbreviations. Even as a medical writer, I was overwhelmed.

And yes, it may become the primary focus of your life for a few months. Because once you hear those words and once you have to say "I have breast cancer" it is awfully hard to put that on the back burner and think about anything other than the upcoming surgery.

As best you can, try to find some quiet time each day and tell yourself that you can be strong and you can get through this. It's OK to be overwhelmed. It's OK to be scared. It's OK to feel like nobody understands you; because most people don't.

I hope this helps you to feel a little bit less alone. Please let me know what I can do to support you.

Suz

ER+ Pr+ HER2Neu-, BRCA2(negative), stage 1. 3 small lumps in left breast. I opted for mastectomy in the hope that lymph nodes would be clear. They were, and I didn't need radiation or chemo.

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   Posted 9/6/2016 11:18 AM (GMT -6)   
Had a my mammogram about ten days ago and got the letter saying they needed more imaging done due to nodule densities (2). Since that letter I have been feeling pain in my left breast. Actually have felt pain there before but am now paying attention to it. Am scheduled for a spot compression mammogram on Wednesday. Have not slept a full night since I got my letter, even if I take my ambien. Any suggestions? Nervous person here waiting to hear from someone. Forgot to add I am 65 so I can rule out period pain in my breast. Just really worried and it seems to take forever to find out anything. I am a worrier by nature so this has really set me off.

Post Edited (nana28) : 9/6/2016 11:21:05 AM (GMT-6)


exqualls
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   Posted 9/6/2016 3:24 PM (GMT -6)   
healing thoughts--thank you for your thoughtful post. your situation sounds very similar to mine, except for the size of my masses being larger. I know that there are other variables that will determine my future course of treatment, but it would be a dream come true to have your same outcome; surgery, but no chemo or radiation! i am trying to remain realistic, however, and i do expect that is not likely. just to know that it is a remote possibility fills me with hope, though.

thank you again for writing

exqualls
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   Posted 9/6/2016 3:33 PM (GMT -6)   
nana28--
i understand completely. i am NOT a worrier by nature, but a lump or pain in the breast makes worriers out of all of us. we just have to take one step at a time, which means one test at a time. it seems like every time you take a test, the results might show they need to follow-up with a different kind of test. so the anxiety drags on. best of luck to you, and please keep us updated with your resultsl

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   Posted 9/10/2016 6:52 AM (GMT -6)   
the surgeon's office called me to schedule another ultrasound, on the area underneath my breast where the MRI "lit up" two spots. I admit to feeling a bit nervous, as my mind jumps to thinking the cancer has spread to my bones, since the area seems to be on the rib just below my breast. Also, since my diagnosis, the few people i have told have begun telling me the details of everyone they've ever known who have had cancer (which i appreciate), but one of the stories is not a happy one. The poor woman, my age, is dying. Her breast cancer spread to her bones, then liver, and spends every minute in agony.
My naturally positive nature tells me that is not what is happening to me, however i will be happy to have this confirmed by the doctor!

Best of health and positive thoughts to all who are reading this, as I know that if you're reading, it's because you or a loved one are in a similar situation.

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   Posted 9/11/2016 10:42 PM (GMT -6)   
Exqualls. So sorry you are having to go through all of this uncertainty. I know it can be excruciating having test after test and not knowing what's going to happen next.

Even though it can be helpful to speak with other people who have been through breast cancer, sometimes the horror stories can only increase the anxiety.

I hope you will keep in mind that for every bad outcome, there is probably another woman who had a good outcome. And as I shared my story above, I am one of those who had an OK outcome. Having breast cancer is a horrible thing and I will live with the scars and the knowledge that I could have a recurrence. But there is hope for a good outcome. I hope you will hold onto that possibility.

Post Edited (HealingThoughts) : 9/11/2016 10:46:40 PM (GMT-6)


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   Posted 9/14/2016 6:47 AM (GMT -6)   
healingthoughts, yes, you are right. and just yesterday i heard another wonderful outcome. I squeezed in an appointment with my dentist, as the normal date would have been just after surgery. my hygienist reminded me that she had a double mastectomy 15 years ago (so long ago i had forgotten) when she was quite young, and actually had a very aggressive cancer. she is the picture of health and vitality.

I've had my pre-op work-up with EKG, chest X-ray and blood tests. I've met with my plastic surgeon, and i feel quite confident with her. i learned i'll have to get implants after the tissue expanders. i had hoped i could do a fat transfer from my belly area, but apparently i am not heavy enough (that was nice to hear). tomorrow i see the oncologist and then the next day i get that extra ultrasound to try to find out what those other two spots are that were lit up by the MRI. I'm also going to get a flu shot and a shingles vaccine, since i am approaching the age when shingles could appear.

it is so hectic to work full time and fit in so many appointments. and aside from medical appointments, since my birthday happens to be a couple of days before surgery, it's that time of year when i have my annual "dates" with various girlfriends. I am losing the "alone time" i dearly love, but i am also grateful for so many distractions to keep me from thinking wild thoughts.

Once again, i am reminded that i am grateful to be able to post my thoughts and feelings here.

Best of health and positive thoughts to all who are reading this, as I know that if you're reading, it's because you or a loved one are in a similar situation.

exqualls
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   Posted 9/17/2016 5:43 AM (GMT -6)   
My oncologist was an impressive person, and i felt quite confident and comfortable with her. There was just this one thing that gave me pause. She said they had a meeting of the "tumor board" (my surgeon had told me that he and a group of other specialists gather all information on a patient and discuss it thoroughly to debate and come to an agreement on treatment). She said that they had agreed that I would need chemotherapy, which didn't surprise me. But when i asked about the results of the oncotype test she said they had not felt that test was needed, that it is a test ordered when results are borderline, when they're not positive already that chemo is needed. I was not borderline because of the size of the lumps and the high ki-67 result-- 48%. Through all of my internet research, I have gotten it into my head that an oncotype test was imperative, so the fact the doctors did not feel it was needed in my case makes me feel like we're not going to have all possible information before going forward with chemo and (maybe) radiation. She said i could request that my surgeon order the oncotype test at the time of surgery, and the results would be in before I would be starting chemo, and IF the results made the need for chemotherapy doubtful, then the plan could be reconsidered (although I will be getting a port put during the surgery, in anticipation for the need of chemotherapy).

My third ultrasound went well enough-- they were looking now in a deeper area that had been spotlighted by the MRI. However the doctor did not think it was anything of concern.

Bills keep pouring in every day. A few hundred here, a couple thousand there---amounts they say insurance doesn't cover or that are under appeal. Usually I am obsessive with bills, paying them in full immediately, although there have never been so many or in such high amounts before. And what a relief it is that I actually do not care about the bills! I find i just set them aside, knowing I'll pay what I can when I can, without anxiety. The perspective that having cancer has given me makes me not sweat the "small stuff", like a bill being paid in installments and not in full.

Best of health and positive thoughts to all who are reading this, as I know that if you're reading, it's because you or a loved one are in a similar situation.

Post Edited (exqualls) : 11/3/2016 2:52:45 PM (GMT-6)


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   Posted 9/18/2016 7:06 PM (GMT -6)   
I am usually in the Anxiety forums, however I was clicking around in others and found this thread. Just wanted to send you so much strength exqualls. I'm so sorry you're going through this, but your grace and bravery is admirable. Love and light to you!

exqualls
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   Posted 9/20/2016 10:36 AM (GMT -6)   
thanks, supafunk!

i am curious to know if anyone reading can share any information about the cold caps that are used during chemo to prevent or minimize hair loss? thanks in advance!

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   Posted 9/25/2016 8:45 AM (GMT -6)   
Three days until surgery. All 3 doctors--the surgeon, the plastic surgeon who will start reconstruction with the tissue expanders, and the oncologist-- all say I'll only be in the hospital over night. That just seems insane. Other women I've spoken to say they've stayed 3 and 4 nights. I hope that will be true for me as well. I can't imagine that I won't need as many days of high-octane drugs as possible. I admit to becoming more nervous as the date draws closer. I completed my living will and designated my health care surrogate (something I never did with my previous back surgeries or shoulder surgery). When offered the chance to do so previously I always brushed it off as unnecessary. When the thought of dying flits across my mind, it doesn't so much have to do with having cancer, only the routine risks associated with surgery and general anesthesia.

I really do recognize that death from a surgical complications is not likely, and it is not what has lead me to feel more anxious as the date draws near. It's everything that comes after the surgery. The pain from healing, the weekly visits to inflate the expanders, the discomfort I've read about from having those --and the chemo! Fatigue, going bald, mouth sores, finger and toe nails falling out-- and all of this going on for months, before more surgery for reconstruction. And I don't even know yet if I'll need radiation.

I'm so thankful for being able to vent here. I share a little of this with my husband, but he has so many of his own health issues, I try not to burden him.

Best of health and positive thoughts to all who are reading this, as I know if you're reading, it's because either you or a loved one is in a similar situation.

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   Posted 9/30/2016 5:07 PM (GMT -6)   
surgery was 2 days ago. i have almost no memories of the first or second day. the pain is pretty much tolerable. My husband and kids told me funny things i said during first 2 days!! i haven't been able to remember. i only remember that i heard my surgeon telling someone that all my axillary nodes on the left side had to be removed,

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   Posted 10/8/2016 11:07 AM (GMT -6)   
it's been ten days since my surgery, and i basically feel completely healed! which i know is so misleading, as i have so much more to come, with chemo and possibly radiation, and then reconstruction. if only surgery was all i needed! i got my genetic testing back and i was negative for all types of cancer (ha!)

I've asked my doctor to do an oncotype test or a mammaprint test, which i guess do the same thing-- narrow down whether chemo is needed or not, based on further genomic testing, but i haven't heard back yet if that was done or what the results were. i still have my drains in. i see the PS on monday and hopefully they will come out then.

Best of health to everyone reading!

Post Edited (exqualls) : 11/3/2016 2:57:13 PM (GMT-6)


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   Posted 10/9/2016 6:48 PM (GMT -6)   
So glad you're healing well exqualls!!!

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   Posted 10/11/2016 6:06 PM (GMT -6)   
My surgeon's office called with some of the results of the pathology after my surgery. My stage is 2B. They say the "margins are clean", which is great news. Also, the dye that was injected to travel to my lymph nodes so the doctor could remove the sentinel node(s) and see if cancer was there, did not work (due to scar tissue from a previous surgery). Therefore he removed all 24 lymph nodes in my breast/armpit area, and tested them all. And the good news is there was only cancer in the closest node, so i was very happy to know that the cancer wasn't spreading wildly throughout my body as I had feared, and as it had done with my friend's friend... who recently died :(.

The mammaprint test results aren't in yet, but should be by the time I see my surgeon and my oncologist at the end of this week. I've done a lot of reading about the oncotype test and mammaprint (which is apparently a better version of the oncotype test), and i am keeping my fingers crossed that the good news will keep rolling in, and that the test will say I won't benefit by chemotherapy. I know that is a lot to hope for. Everyone I've talked to that has needed a double mastectomy has also needed chemo and radiation. But I might as well dream big! In any case, I should know in a few days.

I still have my drains in, as apparently I've been overdoing my exercises. All I've done is walk around my house slowly, and do the few sets of arm movement exercises that the hospital told me to do (which are really minimal movements as far as exercise goes). Since I have felt pretty well, I've done the exercises to excess, I guess, so my drains could not be removed this week as planned.

Best of health and positive thoughts to all who are reading this.

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   Posted 10/15/2016 5:59 PM (GMT -6)   
Still in the waiting game. I saw both my oncologist and my surgeon in the last couple of days, and both are presuming I will have chemo, as the mammaprint test isn't in yet, and may take a couple more weeks. My onc says I will have the ACT regimen, which I figured. Since I'm still healing from the double mastectomy I wouldn't start chemo until mid-November, and the mammaprint test should be in before then. So I will continue to keep all my fingers, toes, and eyes crossed that the results will negate the need for chemo

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Best of health and positive thoughts to all who are reading this

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   Posted 10/17/2016 4:22 PM (GMT -6)   
I saw the plastic surgeon today. The drains weren't ready to come out yet (although I am ready for them to come out!). However something wonderful happened during this visit. I was not expecting this to happen until much later, for some reason, but the doctor started the process of filling up my expanders! She held a magnet over my breast/chest area until it found the magnet on the expander under my skin, and then marked the spot on my skin with a marker dot. She then used a syringe and put in 60 CCs of saline solution into each side of my chest, and voila -- I suddenly have breasts! Small ones, but there they are! I have breasts again! It was amazing as well that I did not feel a thing. The THOUGHT of a needle going into my breast (without sedation or medication of any kind) sounds painful, or at least uncomfortable, but it was neither. I felt absolutely nothing. Hopefully one day my breasts will have feelings again, but for now, I am happy to see the feminine contours.

Best of health and positive thoughts to all who are reading this.

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   Posted 10/21/2016 8:43 AM (GMT -6)   
I know I am using this forum as my own personal diary to chronicle my experiences with breast cancer, and thank God for it. I don't know what I'd do if I couldn't just let it all out here, in a way that I prefer not to burden friends and family with.... but believe me, I share plenty with them, I just want to cut them a break sometimes and not share every tidbit.

Yesterday was a very emotional day. A lot of stressful things unrelated to cancer were weighing on my mind, and so the appointment with the oncologist struck me particularly hard. This was the appointment they had labeled "educational". After I checked in, I waited for just a few minutes before a nurse I'd never seen before led me back through a maze of hallways that I didn't even know existed, until we went through a pair of doors that opened into a very large room filled with rows of chairs with patients hooked up to IVs. Everyone was in a different state of decay. People so sickly looking -- from nausea, or bone pain, or severe fatigue from the chemo--and either bald, or with an ugly wig, or worse yet, women my age (approximately) with a man's haircut. I never wanted to be one of those ladies who get to be 40 or so and then suddenly never do their hair again, they just get a man's cut- or close to it - and give up. I know I can wear a wig, but it devastates me to know I will be bald under that wig for 6 months, and then when it does start to grow, it takes 2-3 months to even have as much hair as a Marine fresh out of boot camp. I sound so vain, but it's only partly that. A woman having longish hair represents something--that she hasn't given up, that she's still active in life. And the reverse is true, at least in my eyes. To be my age with a man's cut (AFTER months of complete baldness), feels like anything fun in life is over.

I literally burst into tears when the nurse walked me through that room. I know I sound horrible, and I honestly and sincerely apologize to all women who choose to wear their hair short, and I truly DO know that it's only a hair choice and doesn't really reflect they've given up on life. Something about how I was brought up must have planted that notion in my brain when I was young and I've never gotten over it. I'm sure the majority of women with short hair find that there's more time to enjoy life since they aren't wasting so much time on styling and managing their hair. Obviously I have hair "issues", and for me personally, having long hair represents something to ME.... and entering that room and seeing my future that is now very close (I start chemo in just a couple weeks), just pushed me over the edge. Like I said, my day had been extremely stressful from non-cancer related issues, and so my reaction was exaggerated.

Yikes, I am really going on and on about this. The truth is, out of all the things in my life right now, cancer is the LEAST of my problems! There are heartbreaking issues going on with my husband, one of my children, and also severe money problems, as well as other, lesser problems. So I entered that room with all of the other issues having been at a boiling point that day, and well, I just fell apart.

However I am glad to have a date when chemo will start. Having information and moving forward is a comfort. If I could afford a psychiatrist I know I need therapy to deal with my negative reaction to short hair.

Again, I truly apologize to anyone with short hair, or who is bald, that I have offended. The negative feelings I have are all MY problem and based on God-only-knows some traumatic childhood experience or whatever. At least the fact that I will BE bald, and I will HAVE that short, man-ish hair for a very long time, as my hair grows EXTREMELY slowly, and I will have to deal with it, and the experience will surely change my outlook.

I have to add something about my "hair outburst". The same day I posted here how emotional I felt about the inevitability of baldness followed by short hair for a long time--I also shared those same emotions with one of my sons who's away at college. He was quite sweet and said he understood how emotional it will be to lose my long hair that I've always been proud of, but he disagreed about how I relate the look of extremely short hair on women as a symbol of them "giving up". He said I should see it as the opposite, because when I go bald, and then eventually go through months of having extremely short hair, it will be because I specifically have chosen NOT to give up. I am choosing life by going through chemo, and the hair loss is like a badge of courage confirming this. I am paraphrasing him, but his words were just what I needed to hear.

Post Edited (exqualls) : 11/3/2016 9:07:13 AM (GMT-6)

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