Just to add my woes - my mom passed away suddenly, 3 months before I got married. I was so mad that she had lived long enough to take my younger sister down the aisle, but couldnt stick around to take me - I realize that she would've wanted to have been there, but that wasnt much consolation for me at the time. I now think of her as an angel keeping my daughter safe. However, for every door that closes, another opens. When my mom died, I felt free to find my birth mother, and as a result learned about the cancer history in my family, which helped me push for a biopsy. Serendipity.
Sunshine, my hugs to you. You will always keep the memory of your mother alive, and she will always be with you.
There are no wrong turnings, only paths we did not know we were meant to take - Guy Gavriel Kay