Kathy: Just think, by this time tomorrow your treatments will be OVER...DONE...A THING OF THE PAST!!!!!! Now all you have to do is get some rest and allow your body time to heal. The feelings that you are having are the same ones that each of us have had/has. We all worry about a recurrance. You will reach a point (once you have your strength back) where you won't think about the cancer 24/7. Oh, it will be in the back of your mind but NOT in your every thought. It is also frightening to think that you aren't going to be seeing medical personnel every month. Kindof like a security blanket. I am sure that your mom is very scared but you have to remember that she has to learn to deal w/ this in her own way. Your job is to concentrate on YOU. When I was first diagnosed and going thru treatments, my mom was telling everyone that I wouldn't live a year. I confronted her and she denied it. Unfortunately for her, she had said this to my dd's in-laws.
One thing that I found that helped me when I was down was watching a funny movie (nothing heavy or depressing). Although there were times that war movies fit my mood just fine. I am a big Carol Burnett fan and I would watch the reruns of her show. Sit and laugh until my stomach hurt and then realize how good I felt.
Congrats again of completing your treatments!
I know I didn't have to use my vacation time, but I can't afford to take a lot of time off with pay. Unfortunately, I'm one of those people that doesn't save money very well in case of emergencies, but I'm hoping to change that for 2006.
I did my rads the 1st week of August. Maybe some of you remember I did a topic on it. I did that brachytherapy/mammosite where they insert a balloon in your breast and have a catheter hanging out and they send a seed thru the catheter. I only went for 5 days, twice a day. My mom says she prays for me every day. I'm not a religious person and there's no point in starting to be one now that I'm in need. People have been kind. A lady my mom works with gave her $100 to give to me. She said she really wasn't sure about donating to the Katrina fund for not knowing where her money would really go. This way she knew it was going to a good cause. My mom tried to give it back to her which I told her to, but she wouldn't accept it. I got a nice chunk of money for my birthday & Xmas which will help me catch up on my bills. Unfortunately, my boyfriend is not one to give away money, anything I have borrowed I have to pay back. Although between my birthday & Xmas he did give me $300 (b-day was 12/24). My mom's male friend even gave me $50 for Xmas.
Anyway, I don't think much about the cancer. I was thinking about it 24/7 before I started chemo to the point I was making myself sick. I'm afraid to try to examine myself for fear of finding a lump.
Carol Burnett is great. I love old movies etc.. especially the 3 Stooges and the Marx Brothers. Every Saturday morning the Stooges are on for an hour and even though I have seen all of them a lot of times, I still get a big kick out of them.