I haven't posted here in months but read it as much as I can...maybe once a week.
And I'm praying for all of us!
I'm VERY busy posting ...sheesh!...I mean working 40+ hours a week. It has been very draining for me.
I finished RADS in the first week of Dec. I had to take a week off from rads because of the major mess under my arm. It is still not all healed yet. I went for a month without wearing a bra at work...thank goodness it was getting cooler and I could layer and wear baggy stuff. I felt so ...well....uh...icky.
Now if I could just lose the 20 lbs I gained in chemo.
I'm supposed to be taking Tamoxifen....I got 3 at Walmart....they had to order more. So two weeks later i remembered I was supposed to get them. I FINALLY remembered to do it...they put it back since it took me so long to come back! Actually, I'm afraid to take it. Today....I realized I better start....and now I can't remember where I put them. It must be here somewhere........but more hormone inbalance sounds pretty scary to me........what if I freak out?????
Just this week I started stressing over silly stuff.......
2 more months til my DX date anniversary..... what if it shows up somewhere else?
Wasn't I supposed to go back and have my port flushed? I forget.
Will my house ever be clean again? Was it ever before?????? Do some people wash dishes?
And what if I want to go swimming.....how do I hide my UGLY armpit???? Will it ever heal up?
When will my hair every stop sticking straight up and WHY isn't it curly????
I would NEVER have agreed to chemo if I knew it would be straight again..my goodness......and I had to color it. It came in white and gray ...actually silver. Now it is reddish blondish...of some kind...rather unusual.
And the big question......how do I get my bra to stop twisting to the right???????
Today I spent lots of money. I bought a leather rocker/recliner and rocker/glider for $1000 ...that was 1/2 price. And then an electric guitar and AMP for my boyfriend...$360 at a pawn shop.
I'll try to come back more often and post. I finally remembered my login name!
God bless you,