I am so sorry for all your troubles. It is very normal to feel defeated. But... you have been through so much and have been very strong. Stay strong!! Grieve now so that you can build yourself up in time for the surgery. You will heal and feel better. Breast Cancer takes so much from us, do not let it take your spirit. I will have you in my prayers and please let us know how you are doing. Do not stop writing us. We will always listen and try to help.
Love and hugs,
Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their work: if one falls down, his friend can help him up. Ecclesiastes 4:9-10