Hi Pam! Isn't it surprising that the "ledge" is a little wider than we thought? I am proud of you for realizing and dealing w/ your emotions at this point in your journey.
Triplets! God bless you. I am raising my 3 granddaughters (ages 11, 5 and 2) and at age 56 (well, 55 for another 4 weeks..lol) and it is exhausting. I can't imagine triplets.
When I was first diagnosed, my dd and 2 granddaughters were living w/ me. My eldest granddaughter was 6 at the time. I tried to be as honest as I could when I first found out w/out scaring her. I included her, as much as possible, and she was my strength. If I was down, she was there w/ a hug or a silly joke. When I had my head shaved, I took off the ball cap and showed her. Her comment was, "well, nana, it doesn't look to bad. Just wear your hat when my friends come over!" I even took her to my chemo a couple of times. The staff was great. She saw that we laughed and joked. The nurses even had a water fight w/ her. Your kids are strong and will help you.
Hang in there. You will have lots of highs and lows. Just concentrate right now on those 3 beautiful children. Have fun w/ them. Keeping busy will keep your mind off the upcoming weeks right now.
Hugs and prayers...Deb
Pam: What a wonderful story! It sounds as though you and your husband are doing a great job in the way that you are working thru this w/ your children. It is amazing what they can understand. Isn't it great that you have them to make you smile?
Keep up the good work!