Bertie --Every day is a new day with new hope and new treatments for this disease. As a 9 nine year fighter/survivor of this I know the sleepless nights and know that you can have peace if give this over to God. At the beginning of this journey, I told God that I couldn't do this anymore (sleepless nights/worry/being sick) and he would have to take over -- I got so I just dealt with cancer on chemo days and the rest of the time was just going to be me. I don't know if you saw my earlier "Miracles do happen" post but I just received a clear scan for the first time in 9 years.
Hang in there -- hang on to each other
Hugs -- Jackie