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luvnbk
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Date Joined Dec 2006
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   Posted 12/29/2006 9:23 AM (GMT -7)   
I'm 30 years old and discovered a large lump in my right breast last Wednesday. It's probably been there longer but I'm sad to say I'm not faithful w/ the self exams. I say large because it consumes almost the entire breast. I had a mamo and an ultra sound yesterday and have been referred to a surgeon because of the findings which were 3 areas of microcalcifications, a giant complex cyst that contains a large area of matter, a smaller simple cyst, and 7 smaller solid  lumps.  I was stunned when the Dr. told me that he is deeply concerned about the calcifications and that we cannot ignore them. I was in so much shock that I couldn't even come up with a single question to ask.  As you might imagine I'm flooded with them today after doing a little research and I'm more scared than ever!  Everything I've read either describes finding one or the other but not all of this at once and I truly do not know what to make of it.  Any words of wisdom while I await my next appointment would be appreciated.

coopfesta
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   Posted 12/29/2006 12:00 PM (GMT -7)   
As MK would say.....Breathe.
 
There's nothing to worry about yet.  Today you are still the same person with the same issues and friends and loved ones, etc.  Be yourself and remember:  You could get hit by a bus tomorrow, how do you want your last moments spent, freaked out?
 
OK, enough of that.  Down to business.  Bring a tape recorder and a friend to the doctor's.  You won't be able to retain anything.  Try to get a needle biopsy as soon as possible because a biopsy's the only thing that truly tells you what you've got.  If it's cancer, it's not the death sentence it was years ago.  You'll have people here and probably in your town who are organized for supporting you.  You get to be part of a club that no one wants to join, but there's lots of support.  I pray for B9 results, of course, but speaking as a 3 year survivor, there's life after cancer. 
 
Tell us about yourself, Married?  Kids?  Job?  What!  I was 38, married to an insensitive hunk (who almost got slugged more than once) and mother of a 3-year old son when I was diagnosed.  It was pretty freaky, but I made it through with the help of the ladies on this board.  Tell us more about you.
 
 


"Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall." -Confucius
Don't knock on Death's Door.  Ring the bell and run.  He hates that.

Ellen


Kattbird
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   Posted 12/29/2006 5:03 PM (GMT -7)   

Sorry you have come to this board. But you will find a lot of very nice ladies here with their own experiences and stories to share. Ellen has said a lot. Take someone with you or a tape recorder. I heard nothing after the surgeon said I had cancer. I had to go back for a 2nd visit and took a tape recorder with me. I still didn't believe I had it. sad I hope that it is B9 for you. Please keep us posted.

Lots og {{hugs}} to you.

Kathy


luvnbk
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   Posted 12/29/2006 10:21 PM (GMT -7)   
coopfesta and kattbird, thanks for your kind words.  I am married to a wonderful man who himself is a 24 yr survivor of Hodgins lymphoma and have two wonderful children.  Because he knows the fear he could not be more supportive. His family is tremendously supportive because they've all been through the waiting games. If it were not for his insistence I probably would have taken a lot longer to book my inital Dr.'s appointment.  I work in sales and oddly enough have 4 co-workers battling different types of cancer so I get my fill of it on a daily basis which makes it hard to ignore or at least not think about the what if's!  I can also say that if my worst fears are realized I do have access to some of the best Dr.s in the country, the surgeon I'm seeing next week is the same one who biopsied my husband 24 years ago, he's a world renowned surgeon and I know I'll be in good hands.  I will keep you updated.

debbiR
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   Posted 12/29/2006 10:37 PM (GMT -7)   

Hi! Sorry that you had to come here and post but I am glad that you found us. You will find a wealth of information here and support as well. We all know the fear that you are feeling right now. But, as Ellen said, breast cancer today is a MANAGABLE disease, NOT a death sentence. Remember this!

You have received some excellent advice. The one thing that I might add is that you get a notebook and keep w/ you at all times. Write down any and all questions that you think of, no matter how silly they may seem. Then when you go for your appt, take them w/ you. I would also suggest that you take more than one person w/ you. That way someone can write down the answers to the questions and the other can listen and hold your hand. You are lucky that your husband and his family understands what you are going thru. But remember, you have the right to your own feelings. Try to put this out of your mind for right now. Go out and enjoy the weekend and celebrate New Years. You may not think that you have anything to celebrate but realize that you found the lump and took action. Try and laugh as much as you can. It is a great stress reliever.

Where do you live? We might have members close to you.

Hugs...Deb

 


 


luvnbk
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Date Joined Dec 2006
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   Posted 12/30/2006 8:44 AM (GMT -7)   
debbiR, thanks for your advice.  My husband and I did have a date night last night, the first in a long time and it was wonderful.  The notebook  and tape recorder are great ideas that I'm definitely going to use.  I live in Omaha Nebraska. Regardless of what my outcome is I certainly am awakened to the reality of it. I've long been a supporter of breast cancer awareness and have sponsored a co-worker in the Race For A Cure for 5 years but my outlook is a lot different now, it includes making myself and all those that I love be faithful with self exams.  I'm off to enjoy the day shopping, you're all very wise to advise having positive thoughts and staying busy. The laughter will be in full force tomorrow when I watch my daughter and all her friends sing karaoke and celebrate the New Year, who knows I might join them!

coopfesta
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   Posted 12/30/2006 10:07 AM (GMT -7)   
Good for you!  You sound really really good!
 
Watch the shopping, though.  When you think it's possible you may die before the bills come......well..... THEY COME!  One day I'll tell you the story about the Simon and Garfunkel tickets I bought soon after being diagnosed!  (Click Click and away I went)   cost me more in bank fees than the tickets cost!!!!!  and concerts ain't cheap these days!  Emotions and shopping sometimes don't mix, but it's also a great stress reliever too.  just keep a level head.
 
Keep up the good thoughts and gratitude for those supporters  They're gold!!!!!
 
 
"Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall." -Confucius
Don't knock on Death's Door.  Ring the bell and run.  He hates that.

Ellen


wackygal
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Date Joined Jul 2003
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   Posted 12/30/2006 3:05 PM (GMT -7)   

Hi luvnbk-

Waiting is the pits.... hope you find out good news soon.  In case its not though, we're here to help... just to let you know I was dx in 2001 with a huge tumor (4.5 cm) Stage IIB and had lymph node involvement (5 of 49) even though I thought we caught it 'early'.  Had a bilateral mastectomy and the whole 9 yards (chemo, rads, Herceptin) . And, in 2 months I'll celebrate 6 years.  Never thought I'd make it this far, but so many more women are these days, thanks to new drugs and more aggressive treatments. So hang in there, no matter what your dx is.  Many hugs- Stefanie


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 To do what I do"

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