Please tell us your name!
Thank you for telling us where you're at. I know that roller coaster. You're vulnerable now, remember. There are many things to think about, but remember your decisionmaking may be impacted by this whole experience.
My husband was no help either. Almost left him. I found this site instead, and had wonderful help. One gal was going through chemo and radiation at the exact same intervals I was, and we were really close online. It was a wonderful wonderful resource for me.
Little things: don't spend too much money right now. yOu're not dead or dying, the bills will need to be addressed!
There's also castingforrecovery.com and chemoangels.com. People have given to the cause of making you more comfortable and letting you feel loved. Let them do it for you. Look at my post.
Do something for yourself. Write back.
"Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall." -Confucius
Don't knock on Death's Door. Ring the bell and run. He hates that.