You are awesome. I thought I had a handle on my emotions, and trying to stay positive. But now as each day goes by, and I become more anxious and emotional. Which I know is all normal, and I would be weird if I was not concerned. I am going to speak my mind. Even if it turns out to be benign appearing, I don't want it there. I know myself, and I do have issue's with anxiety. I have two women near and dear to me that dealt with bc, my mom, who lost her battle, and my step mom, who survived. However her story is exactly my fear. Something showed up on her annual mammo, and the radiologists just decided to "watch" the area. She was never informed. Then suddenly one day, boom, it turned suspicous and they told her they had been watching the spot for two years prior. (This was before they became strict on these types of results) She was shocked, and it turned out to be malignant. She is past the 5 year point now, but her situation is burned in my mind.
I truly appreciate the support from all. I hope I am not offending anyone. I feel this may be hitting me a little hard because I am currently suffering a relapse of my pain condition. I sustained nerve damage during my hysterectomy, that requires treatment. I am waiting for the insurance to approve my second radio frequency nerve ablation. The first one was done last year, and was 100% successful, and I was able to wean off all pain meds. Well the pain returned in September, so I went back to my pain doc again to schedule another ablation. So I am back on dialudid while I wait for insurance. So alot of my daily energy is zapped trying to cope with pain, and now this. This will now jump ahead of that priority wise. That is why these places for me are important. I know there are always warm gentle cyber hugs, and extra prayers never hurt.