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artpainter
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   Posted 2/6/2008 2:43 AM (GMT -7)   
confused  i know i haven't been on recently;dvt problems & no laptop..no support hose that fit properly yet either....was measured for them also ages ago;hard to fit...legs too long or something.. sad but i have been in chat rooms almost every day for awhile and am ignored;tired of feeling invisible;i write/chat to people & they don't respond. this is artpainter44 & i have belonged for a few yrs. now;what is the problem? i know ppl move on, but to just blow someone off;that's wrong. i am wondering if i just don't fit in here anymore since i can't spend enough time....???? i want to stay, but i am getting very discouraged. thanks, painter
i am a freelane artist with too many interests to list them all here, tho i like thinking, quantum physics, music, movies, most people, swimming pools, animals, kids, word games, puns(ugh, huh!!), fun, food....esp. italian & mexican;i believe in kindnes and compassion towards others...and towards animals and all living things...i will respect you if you wil respect me;we are in the same boat, really, we humans..sick or well. if we do not treat one another well, then why are we here?please, please, be kind &  listen....& "walk a mile in the shoes of others"...."i believe in love & live my life accordingly...."(those are some song lyrics  written by Iris Dement & i love that song "let the mystery be" that the lyrics come from & try to live it as she does);i know i fall short, as do all humans, but it's in the trying that we may find grace & peace. i also believe "to thine own self be true". i am not as much religious as spiritual ....i believe in God, in a universal , loving force & an afterlife(as well as a "before this life"). we are spirit, energy:that is eternal...as is God, the loving universal God.


katy_33
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   Posted 2/8/2008 9:53 AM (GMT -7)   
hi painter,
i dint ignore you,
smile
katy
To be stupid, selfish, and have good health are three requirements for happiness, though if stupidity is lacking, all is lost.
Gustave Flaubert


artpainter
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   Posted 2/8/2008 11:06 AM (GMT -7)   
:-) THANK YOU, KATY!! YOU ARE SO RIGHT ..YOU DID NOT IGNORE ME;SORRY FOR WHINING....VERY BAD DAY..DON'T USUALLY ACT LIKE THAT;TODAY, DEAR KATY, YOU MADE MY DAY..THANKS AGAIN!!! I WILL BE GETTING MY SUPPORT HOSE NEXT WK., SO I CAN SPEND MORE TIME ONLINE...NO LAPTOP;SITTING AT COMPUTER IS NOT GOOD FOR DVD....THE HOSE WILL REALLY HELP!!!! I LOOK FORWARD TO SEEING OLD FRIENDS & MEETING NEW ONES....BLESS YOU, ARTPAINTER44
i am a freelane artist with too many interests to list them all here, tho i like thinking, quantum physics, music, movies, most people, swimming pools, animals, kids, word games, puns(ugh, huh!!), fun, food....esp. italian & mexican;i believe in kindnes and compassion towards others...and towards animals and all living things...i will respect you if you wil respect me;we are in the same boat, really, we humans..sick or well. if we do not treat one another well, then why are we here?please, please, be kind &  listen....& "walk a mile in the shoes of others"...."i believe in love & live my life accordingly...."(those are some song lyrics  written by Iris Dement & i love that song "let the mystery be" that the lyrics come from & try to live it as she does);i know i fall short, as do all humans, but it's in the trying that we may find grace & peace. i also believe "to thine own self be true". i am not as much religious as spiritual ....i believe in God, in a universal , loving force & an afterlife(as well as a "before this life"). we are spirit, energy:that is eternal...as is God, the loving universal God.


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   Posted 2/8/2008 3:55 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Painter. Sorry you were having such a bad day. I've been feeling pretty bad lately - lots of pain and fatigue and other stuff, so I haven't had a lot of energy to do much posting. It's good to see you back though. ((((Hugs)))
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artpainter
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   Posted 2/8/2008 8:46 PM (GMT -7)   
:-)  hippimom2!!!!! so good to hear from u again;sorry u haven't been well...i understand;crohns probs & dvt in left leg..1 yr ago;encapsulated so they are there for like....i was not told they could have been removed...& i am a bit annoyed to say the least....my insurance would prefer to pay for coumadin & support hose....but i don't give up, girl..i am walking;don't even get hose until nxt wk;but walk 2 miles a day about 3-4 times a wk;getting muscle tone back....my mom has a tumor..huge behind her 1 good eye..macular degeneration in other one...she id going downhill so fast;dying before my eyes;all because she would not see dr abt lomp behind ear 2 yrs ago;it's her way, tho;stubborn;all i can do now is try to help...difficult;i was so angry at her, but let that go...it's her life..she is 82, ^ is in effect commiting suicide...i cannot do a thing abt it;my brother stays away as he did when i was the one who dealt w/dad's alzheimers which killed him in 96....sometimes i feel so very alone;i am, actually...my mom lives from day to day..in some kind of denial land, yet she is perfectly cognizant;i feel like i am losing my mind;the stress is so high;i'm in a relationship that is not going well;i feel ignored..a am ignored;work is all;i am not even 2nd...sorry for unloading, dear....but i do have my days; i am still painting, tho....love ya, art thanks
i am a freelane artist with too many interests to list them all here, tho i like thinking, quantum physics, music, movies, most people, swimming pools, animals, kids, word games, puns(ugh, huh!!), fun, food....esp. italian & mexican;i believe in kindnes and compassion towards others...and towards animals and all living things...i will respect you if you wil respect me;we are in the same boat, really, we humans..sick or well. if we do not treat one another well, then why are we here?please, please, be kind &  listen....& "walk a mile in the shoes of others"...."i believe in love & live my life accordingly...."(those are some song lyrics  written by Iris Dement & i love that song "let the mystery be" that the lyrics come from & try to live it as she does);i know i fall short, as do all humans, but it's in the trying that we may find grace & peace. i also believe "to thine own self be true". i am not as much religious as spiritual ....i believe in God, in a universal , loving force & an afterlife(as well as a "before this life"). we are spirit, energy:that is eternal...as is God, the loving universal God.


katy_33
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Date Joined Jan 2008
Total Posts : 147
   Posted 2/9/2008 1:50 PM (GMT -7)   
hi art,
SO much stress in your life i know,whats wrong in your relationship if you wanna share bro,if we can dare to advise,hows your saturday going?YOU know 1 thing your parents are lucky to have you in their life,you care for them and are there for them always .....see how much you accomplished in your life .THATS the positive thing in your life right now ,i know when i am stressed out badly i look at all positives around me and give myself a pat on back,so bro give yourself a pat on your back,did i make you smile??
hugs
katy
To be stupid, selfish, and have good health are three requirements for happiness, though if stupidity is lacking, all is lost.
Gustave Flaubert


artpainter
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   Posted 2/9/2008 3:38 PM (GMT -7)   
:-)    redface hi, katy;thanks for cool response...so far, sat. isn't too bad, ty. but i gotta tell u, artpainter44 maybe should have been lady painter...i am a girly girl...ok? ok!! i know ppl call me art & ny husband warned me....but did i listen? nooooooo.....
    another prob is my dad, who was a professor & brilliant man w/math, physics, all science;computers when u had to write a program to tell poter what to do..he taught that;he passed away from alzheimers at 72 in 1996(in fact it was on 9/6/96..i think his way of saying he's ok & showing sense of humor...how perfect for a mathemitician to pick..i do not believe in accidents or coincidences..those numbers...
    my brother visited dad 1 time after we had to put him in a nursing home...said he couldn't stand seeing him like that;like I COULD;mom had no clue what to do so my hubby & i had to handle everything..mostly me;he's cool but emotionally not too available to me;he's an lpc, licensed professional counselor;his clients seem to get his emotional attn;nothing left for me;he made some real bad decisions money-wise, too, so we are struggling...i am just SO tired of trying to take care of a family that in truth never existed like i thought;i was told at the age of 6 when dad left for airforce mission..he was in for 7 yrs..i was in 5 schools in grade2;anyway he thought i would feel grown uo so he told me to take care of my mom & little brother while he was gone;he did not know i was very serious, sensitive & tried to do just that;for most of my life...i know he did not mean to harm me;
    my mom is a narcissist whose whole life has revolved around her...so ours did, too..tho she has other kinder parts to her nature;i grew up being told that i didn't feel what i felt, that i was not normal because i was too curious,,,later learned out my IQ is 146;i don't care...i just wanted to fit in..never did;poor me...pity party here..sorry....i just have concerns that my mom makes no plans for future, will not discuss tumor gets furious...all her fear comes out in anger;she's still furious that dad got alzheimers & died, like he WANTED TO? geeze.....growing up was like walking on eggs;i never knew if i would be hugged or hollered at;mom has pmdd, a hormonal imbalance, so do i!! shoulda seen us fight when i was a teenager...it's like pms x100, 000.....mood swings, weight gain of 10 or more lbs each month..unbelievable...they didn't know what it was back then....i am 61.
     i just feel so overwhelmed...thanks for listening, katy;1 am trying to "let go, let God".....what will happen will happen & i am not responsible for it;yet, i can't abandon an ill mother & never would;i may have to break a promise i made her 15 yrs. ago that she would never have to go into nursing home;she is going blind;maybe i can get someone to live in & help her...but i can't see her wanting that or wanting to pay for it;still, if it kept her home....this is hard;i will welcome any ideas(i'd ove to kick my brother's butt for him & tell him to grow up..but my dad was a lot like my bro emotionally..couldn't cope...) and i am starting to have more trouble w/crohns, dealing w/cfs, dvts, arthritis..a few other things; again, i'm sory to uload;thanks, katy..take care, judy :-)
i am a freelane artist with too many interests to list them all here, tho i like thinking, quantum physics, music, movies, most people, swimming pools, animals, kids, word games, puns(ugh, huh!!), fun, food....esp. italian & mexican;i believe in kindnes and compassion towards others...and towards animals and all living things...i will respect you if you wil respect me;we are in the same boat, really, we humans..sick or well. if we do not treat one another well, then why are we here?please, please, be kind &  listen....& "walk a mile in the shoes of others"...."i believe in love & live my life accordingly...."(those are some song lyrics  written by Iris Dement & i love that song "let the mystery be" that the lyrics come from & try to live it as she does);i know i fall short, as do all humans, but it's in the trying that we may find grace & peace. i also believe "to thine own self be true". i am not as much religious as spiritual ....i believe in God, in a universal , loving force & an afterlife(as well as a "before this life"). we are spirit, energy:that is eternal...as is God, the loving universal God.


katy_33
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Date Joined Jan 2008
Total Posts : 147
   Posted 2/9/2008 8:46 PM (GMT -7)   
hi art,
i wanna know whats real problem between your hubby and you ,if u feel like just wanna talk about it.its hard i know ,life is a battle i know friend ,but anytime you need me buzz me here dear.
goodnight and talk to you soon,
katy
To be stupid, selfish, and have good health are three requirements for happiness, though if stupidity is lacking, all is lost.
Gustave Flaubert


artpainter
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   Posted 2/9/2008 10:09 PM (GMT -7)   
thanks, katy;i will tell you about it tomorrow, ok? i am wiped out, goin to bed,,,thanks so much;i'd love your input....!!!! tomprrow, j/art

i am a freelane artist with too many interests to list them all here, tho i like thinking, quantum physics, music, movies, most people, swimming pools, animals, kids, word games, puns(ugh, huh!!), fun, food....esp. italian & mexican;i believe in kindnes and compassion towards others...and towards animals and all living things...i will respect you if you wil respect me;we are in the same boat, really, we humans..sick or well. if we do not treat one another well, then why are we here?please, please, be kind &  listen....& "walk a mile in the shoes of others"...."i believe in love & live my life accordingly...."(those are some song lyrics  written by Iris Dement & i love that song "let the mystery be" that the lyrics come from & try to live it as she does);i know i fall short, as do all humans, but it's in the trying that we may find grace & peace. i also believe "to thine own self be true". i am not as much religious as spiritual ....i believe in God, in a universal , loving force & an afterlife(as well as a "before this life"). we are spirit, energy:that is eternal...as is God, the loving universal God.

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