hippi,dear, thank u for post;appeciate it a lot(you esp. help to lift my spirits so much) & i thank you forever for that, for you & your terrific personality. i got a sort of warning about it, tho...from elisha, mel & indirectly, peter...i don't mean a warning abt your personality, hun...sorry...hope this isn't too confusing...they have concerns about me, that i take some things too seriously to the point of making myself sick(er). gave it a lot of thought;realized i knew it already;if i hurt myself, i cant help others,...yet i promised these 2 kids i'd contact them daily; so i will hurt either way;i just hope they don't . know i can't be responsible for them;yet i care, so do worry about them;time for me to let go & let god, right? all i ever wanted/want to do is to i give some support & caring;lyn is right ,tho; i must not hurtmyself) i didn't care if i did when i was younger...i will help moe people now at 59 if i take better care of me... so it's a trade-off;god i hate those...well, hippi, thanks again;you are terrifissc & always help me sort things out...tc love ya,hugs & hugs, painter i am smiling!