My mom was diagnosed with lung cancer that metasticized to her brain. She's already had brain surgery and radiation started yesterday with chemo to follow.
That's what's kept me away. I was with her from December 17th until 2 days ago and I'm going right back today. I live with her but spent so much time at my boyfriends that I moved alot of my stuff here. It's all going back to moms and my boyfriends moving in with me, so we can be there for mom.
I'm scared out of my mind. I lost my husband to cancer March 17, 2004 and my father to cancer 12 yrs. ago.
My family has suffered sooo much. This is going to be hard to believe but it's the truth...
My baby sister's husband committed suicide 20 yrs. ago...blew his head off with a shotgun in front of his mother. My brother's wife, 7 months pregnant with his first baby, died of a heart attack in her sleep. He couldn't wake her...touched her and she was cold. My father died at home after a year of chemo. My husband died at home of cancer. My sister has cancer and has had a hysterectomy...it came back....they went back in and took her ovaries. We wait to see if it returns. My other sisters (the one whose husband committed suicide) daughter has cervical cancer. Now Mom.....Mom.
That is SO much for one family. 3 of the 4 kids lost their mates and the 4th has cancer.
I'm so scared.
Mom and I have either lived together or not more than a 5 min walk or drive away for the last 18 yrs. We call each other sometimes 10 times a day. She's my best friend.
She's going to fight this with all she has.
This isn't pain related, physical pain, but it sure is painful...but I'll keep it short. I just wanted to share what's going on and why I haven't been here and maybe some of you will say some prayers for my Mom.
Things have been hectic but we're starting to settle into a routine a little so I'll be able to come here more often soon I'm sure.
I'm having a problem I wanted to see if anyone else here has had. I've been put on alot more meds...for my nerves. Let me list the meds first then I'll tell you what's going on and maybe someone has experienced it too....
Oxycodone 30 mg. 1 every 6 hours
Robaxin 750 mg. 1 every 8 hours
Tramadol HCL 50mg 1 every 6 hrs (for break thru pain)
Restoril 30 mg. 1 at bedtime (sleep)
Klonopin 0.5 mg. 1 at 8am, 1 at 1pm and 1 at 6pm
The new meds:
Remeron 15mg. 1-2 at bedtime (sleep, anxiety and depression) (I don't take the Restoril...taking 2 sleeping pills, not wise, had Remeron filled at pharmacy near Moms so computer didn't alert me but I know better and am going to have that pharmacy fax my records to my regular pharmacy)
Cymbalta 30 mg. Take at 6pm after meal
This is the problem I'm having....
I have a hard time starting urination...not every time but alot of the time. I've been falling asleep on the toilet while I sit trying to pee.
I just now got my meds in the little boxes but before, at Moms, I was so concentrated on Mom and so busy that when I felt I needed something, I just went to my pill bag and took what I thought was due or needed. I might have messed up and took too much of something...very possible.
Has anyone else had trouble starting urination? I've developed, since Moms diagnosis, a stress related narcolepsy and combined with the pills, I was falling asleep with a cigarette...burned a blanket a few times, a book, my neck twice. Scary. That's better somehow. My nerves are unbelieveable (the thought of loosing Mom). Could my nerves also be causing my trouble getting urination started?
Any thoughts would be appreciated and I'll be back asap.
Long, busy day that I must begin.
I hope everyone's doing ok. I haven't had time to read, just came and slammed this post down. You're all in my thoughts.