I feel I am lucky not having spinal problems just stupid fibro and inflammatory arthritis along with crohn's and a few other crappy things. I do not have a clue as to what you are going through. I do know there have been times I have also felt a little like I am on the outside looking in. I guess because I post in flurries and then withdraw for periods of time.
I do know for a fact though that there are so many wonderful people here who care beyond the call of duty about the members and the day to day anxiety and pain we deal with. Know that at some point a member will read your post who knows what your issues are and will respond.
In the mean time, I hope you can try to relax and take your mind off it all... if only for a bit.
Feel better soon and best of the best luck to you.
Dx'd with crohn's 1983, resections 83,85 and 89 Double Strictureplasty 2005, Dx'd COPD 2000, Psoriasis 2002 and Fibromyalgia 2005.
Currently takeing Humira, Pentasa, Lomotil, Elavil, Sinemet, Skelaxin, Advair, Abuterol, Oxycodone and Xanax as needed