A tale to tell for all who care to read. I felt pretty good this A.M. pain level of about 4 which is pretty amazing for me. My Sister calls and asks if I want to come up she lives not 5 minutes from here and my best friend of 48 years was there also. So I decided to go. I knew I would pay for it of that there was no doubt. However my sis has been angry with me for not coming to her home to visit. She can't comprehend the effect it has on me and takes it personal. Things flare up but they also are mostly ok.
I went and we all had a great time and I was there with my sis for over 2 hours. Then the pain hit me, I honestly had to grab a chair while she held me up for a few minutes. It was bad. I had to take my many pills and stay for another hour before I could drive home. I came home and hit the bed. Tonight moving is painful, being is painful, walking is past painful. At the moment I can't help wonder if it was worth it. How sad that is, right? It will be days before I'm anywhere near that 4 pain level and will be at the 8-10 level till than.
I love my sister but the last time the situation came up about going to her home she said it was ok just don't expect to see her at my home. I guess I agreed to disagree, it's my way. I so
I also could see the look of pity in her eyes when she realized how much pain I was in and I hate seeing people I love looking at me that way. So much pain and hurt in the eyes of the people I love.
Is this common for any of the rest of you and do you have any ideas on how to heal the rift in a more permament way without alienating my other family members? Anywhoo thanks for giving me a place to vent and be heard with out having to leave my bed. Love Peace and No Pain this is Toritoo and I am definitely out. Goodnight.