Hi, everyone...my friends from afar...I am back from vacation (mexico) and had a great time. I tried not to let my "problem" get to me...it's already done and now I have to face it next Thurs (15th) at my next appt at 8:40am...the dr's assistant was "cheerful and made my appt without reservation....she didn't let on knowing anything (if she does) and obviously no mention was made to NOT make me a follow up...maybe he will just dismiss me when I go in (with no warning...kinda like my drug test..no warning!...(ha) I've covered my bases though and made an appt w/ my primary care dr (who was prescribing my pain meds before going to pain management w/ no problems) for friday (16th at 9am) JUST in case!!!! I also made an appt w/ another Urologist (a new specialist) just because my urologist is "not concerned" with all my tests (showing complex cyst in medullary region w/moderate to severe hydronephrosis and hydroureter*possible distal stone causing obstruction*....seems like "something" to me....I'm in PAIN!!!! My urologist is just so "dismissive" that I need to find a more "proactive" dr....*I've been with this dr for over 7 years and at first he seems geniunely concerned...but like some relationships...it may be time to "move on"!(ha ha) and my pain Dr...well, you all know that story...he drug tested me and now I feel "violated of my privacy" and am not comfortable seeing him either...even if he doesn't dismiss me (which he probably will...) I also have another appt w/ a pain management clinic for next month (soonest I could get in) just to see if there's anything else they can do for me since this dr.doesn't really have any other suggestions other than "drug test and then switching me to Ms contin 3/day and Norco 3/day..."I've already weaned myself to 4 1/2 pills/day (which is only 2 Norco's/day)....I'm in pain, but can Function still....I might have to just "live in pain" for rest of my life....But, I still feel there is definatly something that has to be done to kidney (doubt if it will stop pain though...have been in pain since 99)...have a great night everyone...I'll keep you posted...I'm soo nervous...don't let the "confidence" in this fool you!!!!