Post Edited (PAlady) : 5/27/2008 11:45:31 PM (GMT-6)
Thanks, everyone. I'm pretty sure this is related to surgery. With 4 surgeries in 16 months, I really haven't had time to recover from any of them. Even though the 3rd surgery was minimally invasive, I had a really hard time recovering from it. I was just starting to feel more "normal", though still in constant pain, when I learned I needed the fusion.
Cary, I agree that most people, doctors included, underestimate what surgery and being under general anesthesia can do to a person. I really thought that most of my symptoms, particularly the concentration problems, were just a side effect of the pain killers I was on. However, I've cut the pain killers down to about 25% of what I was taking previously, and it hasn't helped. I know my father had some of the same symptoms following heart surgery, particularly the hand/eye coordination issue. He was always dropping things, which was very uncharacteristic.
I'm going to try to see the psychologist for advice, and just hang in there until I recover more fully. At only 4 weeks post-surgery, I'm still limited in what I can do physically, and it will still be a few weeks before I return to work. Thanks again, everyone.
Thanks, Lisa. It's tough when you keep having surgeries and you don't see results. After this last surgery, I could feel a decrease in my usual pain almost immediately, and initially was "up" emotionally because of the improvement, so I'm really disappointed in myself that I'm not happier right now. It looks like there's a good chance that my 4 years of Hell might finally be at an end, and I'm not happy??? I know I shouldn't be so hard on myself. I'm still having nerve pain from the surgery, the previous pain isn't completely resolved, I can't physically do what I'd like, and I'm not following my regular routine since I'm not working. I realize that's a lot to deal with. It's helpful just to know others have gone through this and that it gets better.