Is Toritoo too happy?

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Toritoo
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   Posted 6/7/2008 2:29 PM (GMT -7)   
yeah  Is it possible to be happy and be a CP patient? I think that I am finally reaching a point on my on going journey through the land of Pain where I feel no pain sometimes! When I went to my last appt. with my CP dr. I had her give me a good up in my pump by going off my patches completely (finally) and going down from 8 percocet to 5 a day. I walked out of her office and by the time I reached my car it hit. (It being my meds.) By the time I got across the street to the pharmacy I was feeling no pain. It was wonderfull. I've been experiencing moments while I was lying in bed where all of a sudden it would dawn on me that I didn't hurt. I remember being amazed at the familiarlarity of the feeling of being pain free. Do you get it? I'm just so happy and excited about the future and the probabilities and possibilities it holds. I'm not saying I'm there completely, that I am not. But for the moment I can take 1 pill instead of 2 for pain. I can walk, get up and down ect. with a real smile not a glued on one.
 
Some of my loved ones while happy for me kind of say, "shhh you don't want to jinx it" and things like that but not me. I want to yell from the tree tops, "I'm not in pain" for now. I can start back into PT and start getting my muscles back in shape. I can start walking in the evening or morning. Slow and easy is the way to go but I feel so filled with....hope.
 
Over the past 12 years and nearly as many surgeries I lost hope a long time ago. I did get it back a few times but not for long and it felt different. Not so real. Not tangible. Now I'm sure I am just radiating hope and if I have an aura and it could be seen you would need sunglassess!
 
The pain pump works for me. After 2 years I believe it now. I only had to go through 2 medications to find the one that works for me, dilaudid. So maybe I am the exception to the rule concerning the pump but I would definitly promote it as a possibility to anyone that asked me.
 
My whole attitude is changing with each new sunrise that I wake up and don't groan with pain but instead a smile on my face. I don't grab my pain pills before opening my eyes. I go hours and hours and feel nary a twinge of pain. The first few days I only took 3 pills the whole day. I'm sorry to go on and on but this is the best thing that has happened to me in a very long time.
 
Thanks for letting me "shout from the rooftops" here with all of my new friends. I'm not going anywhere, I'll be around because I'm sure there will still be ups and downs. Right now I am as high as a kite and I'm not under the influence of any illegal drugs. Like we used to say in the 70's "I'm high on life".
 
So I guess I answered my own question, Toritoo can't be too happy!
Hugs and no pain moments to all,   Tori   tongue  

ryand
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   Posted 6/7/2008 3:19 PM (GMT -7)   
Toritoo:

I am SO happy for you! I am glad you posted your story. It gives me hope that maybe someday the rest of us will finally get there too. I also pray that you will only feel better and better with each new sunrise.

Ry

PAlady
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   Posted 6/7/2008 4:13 PM (GMT -7)   
Yes, Toritoo, I am so happy for you, too!! Please keep posting and give the rest of us hope that each of us may find our own ray of light out of the darkness of CP.

Congratulations!! You've earned it!

PaLady

Lindaloo
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   Posted 6/7/2008 6:00 PM (GMT -7)   
Toritoo,

Congratulations!! Shout it from on high that you are painfree at times. Gosh that must be wonderful. I can only imagine. Yes keep posting and let us revel in your joy and thrill that you feel at the moment. And may it never change for you. Continue feeling as good as you feel. Thank God as always.

Hugs,

Lindaloo
Moderator Chronic Pain
 
Believe in yourself.  Be kind to fellow humans and animals.  Take time to smell the flowers and the coffee.
And by all means, when you are down, ask me for help.  I will be there.
 
Linda


Toritoo
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   Posted 6/8/2008 9:37 AM (GMT -7)   
     tongue Still can't get that smile off my face. Thanks all for your well wishes and for allowing me to "shout from the tree tops" about this new turn in my life. I truly wish that everyone of you could get a little bit of this feeling, it's wonderfull.
 
I'll for sure be around, no doubt about it. I need you all now as much as ever. Ups and downs, ins and outs you have all been there for me every time I needed you and I know that it will continue that way cause you are all so great!
 
So thanks again and I'll see ya around the forums everyone. Hope you all have a tolerable day and/or better day. Take care.
Hugs to all...
 
Tori      scool

PAlady
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   Posted 6/8/2008 12:55 PM (GMT -7)   
You keep on smiling, Toritoo!! There's no such thing as "too" happy because you've got to spread it around to all of us! So never feel guilty, please!!! Lassie's progress as well as yours gives me reason to smile a bit, and hope for myself.

Hugs,
PaLady
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