Welcome!! I haven't had a fusion, my doc said I'm too young, I'm 30, so we are kind of waiting on the artificial disc! ARGH! But I wanted to at least say hello! I just finished a neuro stim trial and I'm in the midst of the decision for it! So, I'm sorry that I don't have much to add, except that I'm sorry what you've been going through, it really stinks! I've done most of those same things you have done, as I'm sure most others have too, just take it one day at a time!!
Thinking positive, though it doesn't actually relieve pain, helps a LOT!! With your meditations, work on your back pain, see it as a red ball that you fill with your pain, fill it up and let it go, throw it out of your house!! LOL! That sometimes helps to give a little relief, or also "mend" your back as you meditate, sometimes doing that will help your body to heal itself. I know its not the answer, but it helps! Maybe sometimes it doesn't, or not enough, but it helps to center yourself and refresh your mind!
Good luck to you, and everyone else!! Hope that everyone finds some sort of relief!
Hi Scared and I too wanted to welcome you to HW. I hate to see you have to become a member of our exclusive little club, but at least we all have one thing in common PAIN. Thats the beauty of this site because the people here know what pain is about, what it can do to a person mentally and physically. I have 2 herniated dics in my neck-no surgery because I said no, I also have a disc at L5-S1 with no impingement, but I have a bad problem with the facet joint at L5-S1 and thats the booger that is wreaking havoc. I have the usual arthritis problems and just learned of moderate osteoporosis of the spine. I have many, many other bad health problems and I am an oxygen patient. But, hey, I just turned 55 and I ain't done yet. Many times I thought I was but somehow I manage to pull my boots up by the strap. I was recently given a brochure on a new surgery that is suppose to help with facet joints, that is still in the console of my car, unopened.
I had a pain pump implanted June of 05 and I will tell you it has made a big difference in my life as far as pain goes. It took me awhile to get there but it was due to other existing health problems, mainly swelling and difficulty breathing, which comes along with alot of medications as a side effect. I took a terrible fall at hime about 10 weeks ago. The muiscle spasms were awful, my pain dr has me on Zannaflex 10mg every 4-6 hours, well he changed it to every 2 hrs and added Baclofen to take a night. I was not a Zombie either taking the Zannaflex that way. Finally had some trigger point injections a few weeks ago and now things are calming back down.
You are very fortunate that your hubby is so supportive of you. Not many have that, mainly because you can't see pain and some have that mindset if you don't see it, it can't be that bad. My husband is still trying to accept things as they are and some days I stay totally away from him because I have my own to deal with.
I do hope you can get some relief when you see your dr. Hang in there and please post whenever you like. Susie