Thanks for your replay.
I am not particularily interested in the "why" but more to "how to deal with the pain..and the changes in your life". My therapist has drawn a blank..i don't find meditating or visulizations effective and the religious outlook like wayne dyre (sp ?) doesn't do it for me either.
I am please I found this place and I really appreciate your response. I have a very suportive family but I need more to get myself whole again...
I will check your suggestions out :)
I have been looking for the same thing and I cant find any that arent religious. I think that talking to other people who have been through the same thing is better than any book. That is just me though. I love to read and am always looking for hard core facts but I dont think any authors are in our boat sorry.