Thank you for the responses. I truly appreciate the consideration. I do not live alone, I have a partner of over twenty five years. Thank God for that blessing. My gastro doctor has said that the damage is irreversable and they have placed me on a transplant list. I have gone through the vetting process. I guess now it is just wait and see. I have a primary doctor that is a DO and she is fantastic. I guess I am just a little scared and not knowing what is going on with all the wierd symptoms that seem to come and go. I have adjusted to the feeding tube. I just cannot seem to gain any wieght and the nausea and pain sometimes is just impossible to deal with. What is really wierd is that there are some periods during the day/night, where i feel so loopy and cannot concentrate. I am not sure if it is the medication or just me. I am finding my memory is faultering. I used to be able to have like a photographic recall ability. I was lucky with that in school. I could remember everything that I was taught or read, ect... Now, there are times when I cannot remember why I tried to get up out of bed, or I am talking on the phone and everything goes blank. This scares me! I am a very private person thus I dont share well with my friends, I do not want to be a whiner or anything. However, I have come to the point of needing to know that I am not alone with this and that there are others who are dealing with things like this succesfully and are still living a good life and thriving. I just do not want to give up. I feel like I am losing ground on that front. Anyway, thank you again for the suggestions. I truly am thankful to know that there are good caring people out there willing to listen and help. It is very encouraging. God Bless and Gods speed to all. Happy New Year!