Thanks Shannon. I think part of it is wishful thinking--that is not taking anything for pain.
And yes, having both partners in bad shape is awful. I know this is a wonderful board, I come here all the time.
Blessings to you. I don't know how happy I would be with no pills. I have pain, if I was taking it for fun, no doubt about it, I'd be off.
Have a good day.
Dear Everyone! Thanks for all of your replies. That's why I love this board. No Shannon, in no way was I offended, I can't even see why I would be, I re-read what you wrote and there was nothing there to be offended about.
I've gotten off meds by weaning, so it is possible but this last time, it seemed hard and knowing I had pain just had me feeling how I didn't want to deal with the pain, esp. since my husband needs me and I wasn't functioning well. Who knows, one day at a time.
Glad to here the subs worked. Don't you have to wean yourself off of them and is it true not all doctors will give it and won't at all for certain drugs? Anyway, I think it's fantastic you did it and I wish u the very best.
I think I know what you are saying John. Sometimes it's hard to make yourself understood on boards. But I always felt bad about taking pills and my husband would remind me that I am a patient and a few times had me take extra b/c the pain was intense. This last experience I think had me see that I do need them and today whan I showered w/o the agony I had the other day I was thankful.
Hope I made myself clear and I thank you all and you are all in my prayers. I know it's a hard life being in chronic pain. Bless you all.
Hi Susie, thanks for writing me. I alway appreciate it when people take the time out to write. I think my reply prior to yours says why I felt bad taking them--past shame. Last week, seeing how hard it was to even stand to take a shower was driven home. This week I feel grateful that I have them. I am good for nothing pretty much without them. At least with them, I can do more, maybe not the way I was--I was an excercise, weight training, nut. But to give in finally after years, I am feeling better mentally. I was putting myself on an emotional trip, if that makes sense. I do need them and to just admit it, feels freeing. My husband needs me also to do things.
It does give you a better quality of life, it is actually ridiculous to even try to come down, I realize it doesn't serve a purpose but make me feel more miserable. I can't believe how long it has taken me to accept a lot of this. My husband would tell me all the time that my thinking was wrong and that I am a patient.
I need to go. Thanks so much for writing, I really love this board, it's the best. Be well and thanks again.
Aw, thank u. What is your name, Denise?
I do feel better about it. It is a very freeing feeling. There's no doubt I need it. OTC meds don't make it and these do improve the quality of my life. I was able to take a shower without finding it so hard to even stand and it not taking forever b/c it was so hard. I was able to drive and get things done, while my poor husband is still not well.
I can't see how anyone would get off of them, if they were in great pain and miserable. The only ones that would are the ones who were abusing them and didn't need them. I have read horrible posts about the evils of these drugs, but I can't imagine someone who really needed them and weren't taking extra writing that way. Yes, I wish I didn't have to and yes, I wish I never hurt myself but I did and am glad that they help relieve me. Sure it would be nice if they weren't addictive, but they are and that's about it.
Thanks for yesterdays post and todays. My husband has been telling me this for years but only now has it gotten through that I need them and it feels better to just accept it and go on and make the most out of life now.
Bless you and all on this board.
Thanks Susie. It has been a horrific journey and I still think they could come out with better pain killers, but so far these allow me to get around and I'm grateful. I was at one time able to do more without as much pain killers, but I know I have a problem looking at the past too and equate less pills or no pills to (this is going to sound strange)--but a better person, because I had always equated drugs to being bad. You would think after all of these years it wouldn't bother me. Only now, after seeing esp. the shower--how hard it was to do, did I realize that I do need to take them and have to accept it. I guess I always was wishing to stop someday or at least take less. I was taking less and hurting, then took more, got off of those and thought that was doing something good but went back on. I also analyze too much.
I am grateful I can come here and unload and have kind people to speak to. All of you have helped a lot and I thank you all. Have a great day.