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Scarred_for_life
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   Posted 3/7/2009 4:03 AM (GMT -7)   
The moon is full the sky is grey
why won't this pain go away.
I try so hard to forget it's there
but it tags along making me pull my hair. tongue
I need to rest, I want to sleep
but the shooting pain curses my feet.

I open the little brown bottle at hand
and curse the white pills that sit there looking so grand.
A closer look, they call to me
"Take us, please take us we will set your pain free.
So with a gulp from my glass, a swallow and a sigh
I lean back in the dark wanting to cry.

The pain is so harsh, the reality so grim
everything I remember of a healthy life seems so dim.
My legs are screaming, my back wrenched
I lay there in the darkness with my fists clenched.
But an hour goes by and the pain it subsides
just enough to make the pain set aside.

If your reading this your either crazy for listening to me or you somehow think that I have lost my marble LOL. Not very good but its a work in progress ha ha ha. I was never good at rhyming in school but it makes me feel like for a few moments I have distracted myself long enough to get a tiny bit of relief. Anyway I'm going to try to get a little sleep before the light comes.

Hugs

Scarred
What doesn't kill us only makes us fight back harder! :P


edt
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   Posted 3/7/2009 6:05 AM (GMT -7)   

Scarred,

I guess I'm CRAZY right along with you.....this is GREAT so far!  Amazing the hidden talents that appear trying to take our minds off our pain!

Great THERAPY for you, GREAT reading for us!

Hope you get some sleep!

XXOO
Patti

 

Your a poet and don't know it lol


Scarred_for_life
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   Posted 3/7/2009 8:01 AM (GMT -7)   
Thanks edt. I think that its because of my pain and the fact that I had not taken a Kadian last night was the reason I wrote that. Took a 50mg this morning with my reg pain meds and I am hoping that it will help a bit. It's funny how we try to make the pain go away or decrease and you know I would love to hear how some of you do this? Maybe it will give me new ideas on how to decrease my pain today.

So chime in guys and gals....tell me how you distract yourself from the searing pain that is cursing your bodies.

Hugsssss

Scarred

P.S. Headed for the post office soon to see if my darn script is there.
What doesn't kill us only makes us fight back harder! :P


aimsgirl16
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   Posted 3/7/2009 8:40 AM (GMT -7)   
Hey Scarred! That poem is great! I wish I had advice about what to do to mke the pain less....I got nothing! I would love to know myself. Half the time the pain meds don't even work for me. Sometimes if I can hobble to my apt complex office building, I will sit in the steam room for about an hour and it will relieve the pain a little bit. I wish you luck!
 
Amy

21 years old...Systemic Lupus 11/07, lupus nephritis 01/09, raynoids 03/08, Carpal Tunnel 03/08

Ultram, Prednisone, Cell-Cept, Lisinopril, Imuran, Ambien, Flexeril, Darvocet, Ferrious Sulfade, Calcium, Vitamin B12, Chantex, Aspirin 81 mg, Vitamin C

Sometimes we feel our flame of life flickering and growing dim then someone acknowledges who we are and what we can be and rekindles our life with hope and love


Scarred_for_life
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   Posted 3/7/2009 9:04 AM (GMT -7)   
ohhhhh aims you remind me that I wish I had my hot tub still. :-( I miss it sooooo much right about now.
What doesn't kill us only makes us fight back harder! :P


Pete trips again!
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   Posted 3/7/2009 9:20 AM (GMT -7)   
Hey Babe, You want to boogie? We can Boogie-woogie all night!!!
Sorry Scarred, That stupid little tume just popped up in my crazy mind and I though maybe it would distract you for a second. Can you take a long hot shower or bath in dimm light? I don't know, it always seems to help me. I was always a cold shower kind of guy, living here in the tropics but lately it's been all hot showers. I slept late today, till 9:00am, I can't remember the last time I did that! Anyway, I woke w/ a phone call from my son Joe, off the coast somewhere near S. Korea! What a great suprise! But the long sleep really got me so I took a long, long showre, till the hot water ran out! Not a good thing to do here w/ a water shortage going on but I rarely do it. It helped alot, I felt like a different guy when I got out! It's a beutiful day here, sunny & breezy in the mid 70's. If it weren't for this din-dang-dogpoop neck-shoulder-arm pain, I'd be fishin somewhere. There I go complaining again when I'm suposed to be helping you! Sorry!
Some where over the rainbow there's a place w/ no pain, no pills, no dr. apt's and we will all be there some day. We will have our HWCP reunion there and we'll bogie-woogie-woogie all night!
Your boogie buddy,
Pete
56 years old, Surgury, Radical Prostatectomy 8/20/03, PSA 6.6, Gleason 3 + 3 = 6, Adenocarcinoma extent (moderate) Stage & Margin:T2NOMX, No Metastases, Organ Confined, bone scan: Neg. 3 1/2 years of depression after surgery prior to Hypogonadizm DX, Testosterone Theropy> new 2/6/09> 400mg injections every 2weeks . 56 and so glad to still be here to see my two sons grow up to be fine young men. They are both serving in the US Navy, one on the aircraft carrier USS John Stennis in port in Japan and the other on a Gator Freighter USS Bataan stationed in Norfolk, Va. I am one proud PaPa! 


Pete trips again!
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   Posted 3/7/2009 9:23 AM (GMT -7)   
OH, dag nabit!! I forgot, I loved your poem!!! Geeze, thats what I wanted to tell you> my brain is still sleeping!
Sorry Scarred! It was GREAT! Could be lerics for a great "Blues Song!!!"
HUGGIE_WUGGIES!!
Sleepy Pete!
56 years old, Surgury, Radical Prostatectomy 8/20/03, PSA 6.6, Gleason 3 + 3 = 6, Adenocarcinoma extent (moderate) Stage & Margin:T2NOMX, No Metastases, Organ Confined, bone scan: Neg. 3 1/2 years of depression after surgery prior to Hypogonadizm DX, Testosterone Theropy> new 2/6/09> 400mg injections every 2weeks . 56 and so glad to still be here to see my two sons grow up to be fine young men. They are both serving in the US Navy, one on the aircraft carrier USS John Stennis in port in Japan and the other on a Gator Freighter USS Bataan stationed in Norfolk, Va. I am one proud PaPa! 


Becoming undone
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   Posted 3/7/2009 11:06 AM (GMT -7)   
Loved it...distract myself hmmmm...my you are talking to the ADD queen.

However, me and flowers have this thing going. No matter how dismal my day, looking at flowers can help just a bit...I have so many here. Oh, and I get all the catalogue...my husband call it my seed ****. I did read somewhere that flowers in both look and sent can alter moods. If you think about it, for eons, humans have used them for sick people and at funerals...mostly to alter the mood of the flower receiver.

Books are a great outlet too. I like the fantasy ones...hence the Tolkien and Rowling references (I like many others, but these are the most recognizable). True life books, nah, kinda gotta be in the mood...to much of a downer...using books to escape true life...

I just gotta say Kudos to you scarred, when I don't feel so good, my brain no workie...but yours seems to. You create wonder words...
"The earth laughs in flowers"


fatherjohn
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   Posted 3/7/2009 12:02 PM (GMT -7)   
Scarred, loved the poem it is full of truth and reality. I don't think it was a typo that you said you have lost your marble and not marbles. If you are like me you lost all the rest long ago and one is all that remained. Hope your week end is not as horible as you thought it was. Blessing!

PAlady
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   Posted 3/7/2009 1:15 PM (GMT -7)   
Scarred,
The poem brought tears to my eyes. How we all understand.

While you're out, why not stop and pick up a stack of your favorite DVD's? See if True Blood's first season is out on DVD yet (HBO's version of Moonlight - and hey, girl, did you watch last night??). Maybe pick up some LOTR since you love that. Splurge on your favorite scented bath salts and soak (but don't drown!) in between DVD's.

And then come for a magic carpet ride!

Hugs,
PaLady

Scarred_for_life
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   Posted 3/7/2009 6:21 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi everyone! Thanks for the pats on the back for the poem (even though its not my best work). Pete: you are the craziest person I think I have ever met! Boogie woogie hun (remembering the Hustle) Now I am showing my age LOL.

Becoming: Let me tell ya....if it wasn't for Tolkien I would have gone crazy today! Started reading LOTR from the beginning and so far it has helped a bit. At least the pain could be much worse then it already is so the little Kadian I am getting must be helping a little anyway.

PA; I am sooooo wanting to see True Blood but I've been looking for the DVD and still can't find it hmmmmmm....maybe I'll look online! Regarding Moonlight episode last night.....uh huh I saw that!!! Of course they are running the first season's episodes and I have seen them once but its fun to go back to it. I can't wait to see what they have planned for New episodes! With Mick's ex wife alive and well and not scorched to a crisp the way she should be makes for interesting storyline. Oh btw; keep watching it is about to go into overdrive next! he he he. (I won't explain more)

Hugsssss off to the tub!

Scarred
What doesn't kill us only makes us fight back harder! :P


PAlady
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   Posted 3/7/2009 8:44 PM (GMT -7)   
Scarred,
I'm not sure if True Blood is even out yet on DVD. The first season just ened a month or so ago, and HBO will probably replay it again before it starts new episodes - I think they said in June.

So the Moonlight episodes I'm watching now (I think I've seen 3?) are from the first season? How long before the second season starts? I wish they'd replay it during the week. Seems if you miss it and don't have tivo, etc. you don't get to see it again.

Anyway, hoping you're relaxing in a warm bath!

PaLady

aimsgirl16
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   Posted 3/8/2009 6:47 AM (GMT -7)   
Oh My... I am so excited! I love moonlight! I learn so much from the place! Hey....what time does Moonlight come on now? Scarred...are you feeling any better today? I hope you are!

Hugs
Amy

21 years old...Systemic Lupus 11/07, lupus nephritis 01/09, raynoids 03/08, Carpal Tunnel 03/08

Ultram, Prednisone, Cell-Cept, Lisinopril, Imuran, Ambien, Flexeril, Darvocet, Ferrious Sulfade, Calcium, Vitamin B12, Chantex, Aspirin 81 mg, Vitamin C

Sometimes we feel our flame of life flickering and growing dim then someone acknowledges who we are and what we can be and rekindles our life with hope and love


aimsgirl16
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   Posted 3/8/2009 10:33 AM (GMT -7)   
Well, I am reading what i wrote last and not quite sure what I meant from "I learn so much from the place"...haha gotta love having memory problems. I am sure there was a good reason but now...not quite sure what it was!

Amy

 

21 years old...Systemic Lupus 11/07, lupus nephritis 01/09, raynoids 03/08, Carpal Tunnel 03/08

Ultram, Prednisone, Cell-Cept, Lisinopril, Imuran, Ambien, Flexeril, Darvocet, Ferrious Sulfade, Calcium, Vitamin B12, Chantex, Aspirin 81 mg, Vitamin C


PAlady
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   Posted 3/8/2009 2:49 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi, Aimsgirl!

Well, I have never, ever been into the vampire flicks and then True Blood started and here I am nearly 60 years old getting fascinated with all the "rules' and characters! LOL So Scarred told me about Moonlight, which here is on at 9pm on SciFi (a channel I didn't even know I had!). So yes, we do learn a lot of things here!! LOL

Scarred - how are you feeling today???

Sending Hugs your way,

PaLady
oops - 9pm on Fridays! smhair

aimsgirl16
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   Posted 3/8/2009 3:31 PM (GMT -7)   
oh....now I remember. When I put the instead of this...that threw me off. HAHA! Maybe I have had 1 too many pain killers today! LOL. I am deffiantly a huge fan of the sci fi channel! Everything except star trek. I just can't seem to get into it. I also have become addicted to the discovery health channel! Trauma life in the ER and Dr G. I can't say I have seen True Blood. I might have to look into it if it is anything like moonlight!
 
 

Amy

 

21 years old...Systemic Lupus 11/07, lupus nephritis 01/09, raynoids 03/08, Carpal Tunnel 03/08

Ultram, Prednisone, Cell-Cept, Lisinopril, Imuran, Ambien, Flexeril, Darvocet, Ferrious Sulfade, Calcium, Vitamin B12, Chantex, Aspirin 81 mg, Vitamin C


PAlady
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   Posted 3/8/2009 5:48 PM (GMT -7)   
Aimsgirl,
True Blood is an HBO series. Just started this past year. The setting is different -kind of like country, a little backwods. Moonlight is much more modern, high-tech. But the relationships are the same (although I think Moonlight has updated the "rules" thing - like with digital photos). LOL I don't even know what I'm talking about with this stuff and it's way off topic for the forum, but I think I'm just having fun with it. And these days anything that brings a bit of fun, I'll take!

Anyone heard from Scarred today???

PaLady

Scarred_for_life
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   Posted 3/8/2009 6:41 PM (GMT -7)   
I'm here PA and aims. Sorry I've been away, trying hard to keep the pain from coming down on me. The Moonlight season you are watching now is from the first season that NBC picked up a year ago then decided to drop in May of last year. Many fans were ticked off about that one!! Not sure when they will continue the series but I Hope soon!! Guess I'm going to have to get HBO so that I can watch True Blood.


Hugsssss

Scarred
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