I'm Retired USAF, went back to school and became an RN, and now am on ful disalbility!
Degenerative Disc (affecting mostly the thorasic disc but all levels involved), C6/7 laminectomy/diskectomy& fusion, Osteoarthritis, Ulcerative colitis, Chronic Pain, Fibromyalgia, Complex Sleep Apnea, and host of other things to spice up my life!(NOT!)
Medications: Oxycontin, Percocet, Baclofen, Sulfasalazine, Metoprolol, Folic Acid, Supplemental O2 at 3lpm with VPAP Adapt SV
Are you from FL? I thought I saw a post from you on another forum.
I hear you loud and clear. I cannot accept the fact that I will be like this for another 11 years let alone longer. I know how I have lost so much physical ability over these 11 years and it scares me to to think about what CP will rob from me tomorrow. What I come to accept is that I can no longer do some of the things I used to do. Even some of the simple chores around the house. I used to like hunting and fishing but don't get to do things like that anymore. I like to go shopping with my wife just to spend time with her but she knows that I will hurt so bad afterwards. I get up most nights and I get so angry for not being able to sleep. I hate CP with a passion. It has robbed me of so much. But I am not about to quit because that would mean it would win. Acceppting the loss of some of the activities and abilities is not the same as accepting CP. I watch my moods closely and I try not to vent on those close to me. I try not to get too iritated or upset with people around me when it is not their fault. I don't like being on my gaurd all the time but I don't want to hurt those I love either.
Bones, I am not from FL and I have never been on a forum before this. I hope there is not another one of me around. One is enough. Maybe I should be in FL though. This rainy weather in Oregon is hard on people like us.
I would have loved to taken your Death and dying course, I bet you were an excellent intructor! I had taken a Death and Dying course in 1993, in fact the text book we used was Understanding Dying, Death, and Bereavement by Michael R, Leming and George E. Dickinson, infact I still have the book. I took it as an extra course while in Nursing School, as I was planning to work with the terminally ill, either with Hospice or on an Onco Unit. Anyway I always thought that it was one one of the best, and most interesting courses of all the ones I took!
You know PALady I do agree with you on both of your views, about the thread, and the broadened view on grief! You have made some very good points!
I will second you on missing the old thread!