Thank-You for this post it is reassuring, I think I can speak for others, but if not I will speak for my self, when I read someones post, and if they have problems I do get concerned about them ( maybe it is the nurse in me or maybe it is just how I am) most of the others here that post also seem to be the same way. Anyway this post has made me feel better about your situation, it has allayed some of my fears, so Thank-you for that.
I know all to well about trust issues with one spouse, I do hope that it all works out well for you in the end! But as long as you have your meds kept safe, it is your health that is the most important thing for you now! You said: ("I am 39 years old. My daughter is 4. and my son is 11. They are my life. I am determined that I am going to make it for me but most of all for my kids.") I think that says it all, you definitely have the right attitude and have your priorities right! You will do just fine with the surgery!
It is so important to trust and have faith in your Doctor, that is a biggy! So it sounds like you are in good hands and from the sounds of it you have definitely made the right decision!
I do wish you well! Good Luck to You
I'm Retired USAF, went back to school and became an RN, and now am on ful disalbility!
Degenerative Disc (affecting mostly the thorasic disc but all levels involved), C6/7 laminectomy/diskectomy& fusion, Osteoarthritis, Ulcerative colitis, Chronic Pain, Fibromyalgia, Complex Sleep Apnea, and host of other things to spice up my life!(NOT!)
Medications: Oxycontin, Percocet, Baclofen, Sulfasalazine, Metoprolol, Folic Acid, Supplemental O2 at 3lpm with VPAP Adapt SV