Bit my tongue at my doctor's appt today.

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Scarred_for_life
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   Posted 4/23/2009 10:40 AM (GMT -7)   
I couldn't allow myself to cry...or vent...or get upset as I knew this was coming. But.....then the big one hit me.

Ok so here is how it went. Had a dr appt today with my PMS doc. Showed up a half hour early and the nurse got me back right away. First thing.....I've gained more weight!!! Now sitting at 146 ACK!! Second....doc comes into the room. Does her thing of checking me over with a fine tooth comb and then we get to the nitty gritty of the visit....The Psych Evaluation.

Apparently more hoops to jump through. Gotta go see a psychologist to work through the depression...Ok I knew this one was coming and fully expect to do so. Not only because I think it will help but I feel that it is a part of the process that needs to be done. Secondly.......doc upped my depression medication. I am now on 20mg of Lyrica a day instead of 10mg. I knew this one was going to happen as well. The third point hit me like a ton of bricks...was not ready for this point and I'm a little miffed about this one.

Many years ago...I drank a lot. But I haven't touched a drop for 12 years if not longer. Plus when I was in my early twenties I had a substance abuse problem but that too I haven't touched since I was 22 years old. Being an adult means you grow up...you grow out of things that you know you don't need anymore nor do you want. I don't want to drink....nor have I the desire to abuse drugs any longer. As I said....I Grew Up. But, it seems the psychologist in his infinite wisdom has decided that this is an issue that I need to deal with. WHAT???

Bottom line............I'm not getting the SCS anytime soon folks!

Miffed in KS....your friend

Scarred
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Tirzah
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   Posted 4/23/2009 11:04 AM (GMT -7)   
Scarred,
So sorry to hear you've hit yet another speed bump. I'm glad to hear you're still working at making progress, but I'm sure it's got to be so frustrating.

Hopefully the increased Lexapro will help. If not, maybe you could try something else. Wellbutrin is stronger plus it often causes significant weight loss. I don't know whether that's the right med for you, but maybe you could bring it up with your psychiatrist.

I definitely feel for you about the psychologist recommending more therapy. It seems they sometimes get more hung up on our past than we are. I'm sure you'll do fine though. Hopefully it will go by quickly & you will get final approval in no time.

hugs,
frances

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   Posted 4/23/2009 11:18 AM (GMT -7)   
Scarred,
I'm so sorry that has happened to you! That really sucks! People do change, especially the ones w/o addictive personallities! I just posted yesterday about my extreme behavior when I was young but was very leary of doing so! I haven't drank in over 10 years except for a glass of wine or a beer about once every couple of months and it's always only one! I haven't used any illegal substances in 3 times that long but I was worried about how ssome people here in our forum might think that I may be BSing and still party like that or may be an addict who just switched to pain meds! It couldn't be farther from the truth! So I know how you feel about being grilled and labelled for something that's ancient history! Now I truely hope that no one here thinks different of me because I was once a druggy and drinker but you never know! It will be a crime if this was the cause of you not getting a SCS!!! Hang in there like Yogi B. used to say> It ain't over till it's over!!!
Your Fla. Bud an ex-party animal,
Pete
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Scarred_for_life
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   Posted 4/23/2009 12:23 PM (GMT -7)   
Thanks Frances and Pete. Your thoughts are truly touching to me and though I am still frustrated with this entire thing...I will prevail! I have it in my mind that there is no giving up at this point! My heart goes out to all that have to jump through hoops to please their ins companies or WC or whomever is paying out the dough to keep us going. I am almost positive that my WC will look at this as another denial and they will fight with me over doing anything productive. But.....I will win over them and sooner or later things will get better.

Hugsss to you both

Scarred
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Tony McGuire
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   Posted 4/23/2009 3:44 PM (GMT -7)   
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PAlady
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   Posted 4/23/2009 4:13 PM (GMT -7)   
Scarred,
I'm so sorry this is going on. It makes me want to cringe when members of my profession act like this, but then it's all about who's paying the tab in too many insurance cases. I think I remember saying to you if you did't fly through this it's not about any lingering psychological issues you have; if anything, the stimulator would help you deal with those, plus if the trial was successful it would likely decrease the meds you use.

IMO this is all about legal B.S. and the W.C. system screwing with you. And they'll keep doing it as long as they can. I really think you need an attorney to help you with this, and to get a psych. eval that can compete/contest the so-called I.M.E.'s they force all of us into.

You are fine, lady! This isn't about you, but they want you to believe that because that weakens you and makes it less likely you'll fight back.

And Pete, you sure are a great example of how people can change for the better. Both of you are.

(((((((((((Scarred))))))))))))

PaLady

Scarred_for_life
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   Posted 4/23/2009 8:38 PM (GMT -7)   
Well PA this was an independent psych eval where WC had nothing to say whether or not he was on their side. It was set up by my doctor and not by WC so I really thought I had a chance at getting this done. But I guess I have failed once more to convince anyone that I am truly in pain and that this is the only thing that will help. My doc has a strong and sometimes overbearing personality and I believe that he will get this through I just have to be patient and get done this other stuff for him to start in on WC once more.

Anyway....I'm laying here on the couch at 10:35pm and my brain is really in a funk. I'm depressed...unhappy and wondering whether WC is even going to ok doing psychological visits so that I can jump their hoops.

Hugsss

Scarred

P.S. I forgot to tell you all. After my doc appt I had to do the dreaded UA. ACK!
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   Posted 4/23/2009 9:27 PM (GMT -7)   
Scarred, I also am sorry that you hit this snag. There are many that believe once and addict always an addict. They refuse to believe that people change. I know this is depressing but in reality, they are the ones with the problem. The shrink needs to up dtae their education and realize that it is possible that people change. Most would agree but they have to hear for themselves. I know from experience that one of the major thoughts in the drug/alcohol addiction field centers in not with the addiction or use of drugs/alcohol but with the reasons why people used them. It would be great to see a diagnoisis that says "young and stupid but now grown up." That could apply to most of us and even those doing the psy evals.  I recently saw my PMS and he stated that he was not going to require me to go through the psy eval unless my insurance demanded it. I called my WC and they said if the Dr. did not see a need, we would procede without the eval. I go in the 12th for my trial neve stimulator and then will have it removed the 18th. Keep fighting and don't give up. I remember during a Psy class in college the professor asked me why I was taking his class (after he heard several coments from me in class that did not make him happy) and I told him "so when I get thown into an istitution I will understand my treatment. Wrong thing to say. I grew up sometime after that. Blessings on you. You can do it.  

PAlady
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   Posted 4/23/2009 9:54 PM (GMT -7)   
Awe, Scarred,
Sorry I forgot your doctor set it up. But still, there is something amiss with the way the whole process is working, but if this psych. eval was scheduled by your doctor and they recommend you have more therapy before the trial....well, I wonder why. This just doesn't make sense to me even from a professional standpoint. You already know the stim won't solve all your pain problems; you have realistic expectations. Getting pain relief should be part of helping you deal with any other psychological issues and I can't think why someone would want to block your trial.

I'm frustrated along with you!!!

Oh - I had to get on the scale today at my doc's, too. And my numbers beat yours, but I ain't gonna put them down here! It's the most I've ever weighed in my life! ARGH!

Sweet dreams...

PaLady

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   Posted 4/26/2009 9:15 PM (GMT -7)   
I feel that alot of the hoops that you have to go through comes down to money.everyone involved wants to make sure that there fellow psychologist, Dr. , councilors ext. make there share of the money.
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