Oxy bless your heart, having to deal with pain and now an addiction. Double edged sword. I will admit I have been tempted to take an extra pill when I hurt but I alway decide not to for it would be hell if I ran out the pain would put me in the ER. Have you ever thought maybe to meds you are on might not be working? I get the same feeling when I take my meds to. I'm happier and more productive but that might also be because the pain has lessened and I can work and keep my sanity.
My advice is as most everyone else. Please express your concerns with your doctor. Be honest and straight foward. You need to do this. If you abuse them further you take the chance of losing your doctor and then you will face the pain and withdrawls all at once.
You will be in my prayers. Please don't get upset about some of the views. Most of us deal with having to jump through hoops to get our meds. Some have to have repeated shots and procedures just to continue to get meds for pain relief all because of people abusing the system to get narcotics. But I give you a millions kudos for realizing that there is an issue going on. That is at least the first step in recovery.
Well, I have often wondered, in the past, if I was addicted or not... Before I started coming here to HW I thought I was a drug addict just because I couldn't function well without my meds.... But everyone here was great, they made me see the difference, Just because you have CP issues and have to take pain medications doesn't mean you are an addict...With that being said...If you abuse your meds that's different. There is a fine line and you crossed it at one time. But that doesn't mean you deserve to be in pain... Everyone that has medical issues with pain should be able to be pain free. Well, maybe not totally free, but at least better.
Talk to your Dr. and see what they say... Maybe going on a Holiday of sorts will help you bring your tolerance down slowly... I wouldn't look forward to stopping or tapering down on my meds, but it would only be temporary..
I keep messing up while typing, I just started Provigil this morning and my hands are shaking...So, please forgive any mistakes....
Good luck with your meds.
I take 15 mg. Oxycodone/ 4 times a day for BT pain and 120 mg. Methadone a day for long term pain...sometimes it feels like that isn't enough...so you arent alone.
I hate Boats!!!!
Post Lamenectomy Syndrome, Spinal Stenosis, DDD....
1999 Hemi Lamenectomy/2005 Spinal Fusion(L4-S1)
Methadone 120 mg. a day/15 mg. Oxycodone as needed(up to 4 x a day)
High Blood Pressure: Lisinopril HCTZ 10 mg. daily
Type 2 Diabetes: (March 16, 2009)
Metformin HCL ER 1000 mg. at night..Glipizide 5mg. 2X in the morning
FatherJohn you are so right.
OXY.... I hope you come back to us and post again. All of us hear have so many different opinions but we all agree on one thing. YOU and your well being.
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