Thank you everyone for your posts. In my mind any relief is better than none. I will jump thru hoops if even 1 procedure out of 100 would work even for a short time.
WhiteBeard and PAlady..... Your post brought tears to my eyes. I have never really looked at everything all at once. In fear if I did I would collapse in on myself. I try and deal with one thing at a time. Plus my mother instilled in me that everything happens for a reason. We might not understand while we go through the hardships but in the end it will become clear.
I've also grown to love this forum in such a short time. Before I felt alone and dealt with everything on my own. Now I've found a place I can have support and also support others that I love to do. If one choice bad or good helps another it is all worth going through the choice from the start. Laughter helps me make it through everyday. My family has the best sense of humor we can laugh at the worst of events even if we are crying. Outsiders think we are insane...
Once again thank you all for replying